Swing, Swing.[Vam]
Title:Swing, Swing.
Author:spikemhinoda------>jess.
Rating:PG-13.
Pairing:Vam. [Ville Valo/Bam Margera]
Summary:"What Bam?" He answers, arm still around my shoulder. "Do you think the reason things didn't work out between me and Jenn is because..." I drift off. "Because what?" He asks. I scrunch my eyes up tightly. "Because I'm gay?"
Disclaimer:Yeah, so New Year's is never going to be this good since the Tyson/Patrick/Nick/Pete orgy. Yeah...
A/N:Alright so I was looking for a fiction that I couldn't remember the name of that I wanted to work on. Turns out I found "Swing, Swing" which was my first songfic and decided to sharpen it out and post it. It's been awhile since my last Vam.
Dedications:To my cuzcuz Becz and Alex. Even though when all three of us are together we want to kill eachother, I still love you two...just at seperate times ^_^;;
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Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir.
"Why me?" I question myself sitting in our pirate bar on this New Years Eve. "How could she just blow me off like that for...Ryan Dunn?" Okay, so my friends are totally backstabbers. Now I have no one to spend the midnight kiss with or snuggle with at night while watching "The Nightmare Before Christmas".
I look to my left to see Raab and his girlfriend Katie on the couch. Right next to them is Knoxville with his girlfriend Jess...not helping! I think I need some fresh air. I walk the steps and head up to the roof.
"Bam Margera...you are a reckless mess," I softly mumble to myself looking down at the town of Westchester from here. The lights always have looked beautiful on New Years, it's just a Westchester thing. One thing that'll never change in my life. Something I can always be sure of.
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.
"No..." I softly mumble feeling the tears arise. "Not again." I plead, but I can't help when I taste the salty droplets. I remember Jenn so clearly and I miss her. Her smile, her hair, her laugh...ugh and then she goes and sleeps with my best friend.God my life is so screwed up.
...or was I always the problem. Was I always the issue with us living on a reality T.V. show? Could she not handle it? I could've worked this out, we could've made a compromise. It's always my fault.
Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like Being alone?
I'll find someone new
"Bam?" I hear a strongly accented voice call. I turn to see Ville.
"Ville? What the hell are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in Finland right now?" I question. I don't know why, but I'm slightly amused at this. Maybe I'm glad to actually be worth someone caring for.
"Eh, I'm off for a while...and I wanted to see you," He replies and I'm truly touched. I missed Wille Walo.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
"Oh..."I quietly reply.
"Bam," He asks looking at me, "were you crying?" I reluctantly shake my head 'yes'. I'm embarassed to admit that I'm still depressed and all bipolar about the whole Jenn situation. I should be over her. I can have whoever I want, right? Right?
"What for?" Ville asks comming over and sitting down next to me. I sigh, feet dangling off the edge of the roof, myself slightly swaying them.
"Jen. I loved her," I reply. Ville nods his head and wraps an arm around my shoulder. Giving it a tight squeeze he replies, "Hey, that's why I'm here. I'm your best friend, your shoulder to cry on if you will."
I smile and look up at him.
"Thanks, Ville."
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings to arise
She knows I was wrong
15 minutes 'til midnight.
"Ville?" I ask.
"What Bam?" He answers, arm still around my shoulder.
"Do you think the reason things didn't work out between me and Jenn is because..." I drift off.
"Because what?" He asks. I scrunch my eyes up tightly.
"Because I'm gay?"
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I into a new love
"Bam? You're gay?" He questions.
"I don't know Ville," I honestly reply opening my eyes.
"Well, have you ever felt attraction towards a guy?" He asks. Oh yes...definitely. There's one person I can think of.
"Uhm, yeah, I guess," I reply, a blush creeping onto my face. Thank god for nighttime.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
5 minutes til midnight.
"Who? I won't tell. You can trust me," Ville says lighting up a cigarette. God, that sounds so cliche 5th grade.
"Uhm, not this time. I can't tell you," I reply. I feel ashamed I can't tell him, but I'd be mortified if he found out that I'd been lusting over him. He takes a long drag and sighs.
"Bam...look, I was in the same situation you're in," Ville says. The smoke flows out of his mouth and infront of his face in pure beauty. He's amazing.
Wait-recap: Ville is gay!?
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
"Ville?" I softly call. Weak, almost. As if reading my mind he replies, "No, I'm not gay, I'm bisexual." He has no shame or guilt saying this.
"And I am in love...with someone who is aswell in the same situation as us," He says taking another long drag.
"Someone named Brandon Margera," He quietly finishes.
Bury me
You thought your problems were gone
Carry me
Away, away, away
10, 9, 8, 7...
He exstingushes his cigarette and looks at me.
"Brandon Margera, I love you," He says. I realize ever since that day when I shyly lifted up my teeshirt to show how I branded myself with the same tattoo as him that I had been in love. He's been the one I've loved all along. From fan obsession, to secret lust, to a desperate need.
"Ville...I love you, too."
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
6, 5, 4, 3, 2...
Ville stares me down and leans in. Green eyes making me feel like shying away. His gaze is powerful.
"You don't have to know, just feel," He whispers and presses his sweet lips up to mine, hand curling into mine. Why does this feel so right? It feels like we're meant to be.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
1: Happy New Year!
Oh my god! Did Ville Valo just...is he now...? I close my eyes and kiss back, totally new to this feeling. He pulls away and smiles smally at me. I blush as the holiday greeting is said to me.
"Happy New Years, Bam."
"Same to you Ville, same to you."
Author:spikemhinoda------>jess.
Rating:PG-13.
Pairing:Vam. [Ville Valo/Bam Margera]
Summary:"What Bam?" He answers, arm still around my shoulder. "Do you think the reason things didn't work out between me and Jenn is because..." I drift off. "Because what?" He asks. I scrunch my eyes up tightly. "Because I'm gay?"
Disclaimer:Yeah, so New Year's is never going to be this good since the Tyson/Patrick/Nick/Pete orgy. Yeah...
A/N:Alright so I was looking for a fiction that I couldn't remember the name of that I wanted to work on. Turns out I found "Swing, Swing" which was my first songfic and decided to sharpen it out and post it. It's been awhile since my last Vam.
Dedications:To my cuzcuz Becz and Alex. Even though when all three of us are together we want to kill eachother, I still love you two...just at seperate times ^_^;;
__________________________________
Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir.
"Why me?" I question myself sitting in our pirate bar on this New Years Eve. "How could she just blow me off like that for...Ryan Dunn?" Okay, so my friends are totally backstabbers. Now I have no one to spend the midnight kiss with or snuggle with at night while watching "The Nightmare Before Christmas".
I look to my left to see Raab and his girlfriend Katie on the couch. Right next to them is Knoxville with his girlfriend Jess...not helping! I think I need some fresh air. I walk the steps and head up to the roof.
"Bam Margera...you are a reckless mess," I softly mumble to myself looking down at the town of Westchester from here. The lights always have looked beautiful on New Years, it's just a Westchester thing. One thing that'll never change in my life. Something I can always be sure of.
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.
"No..." I softly mumble feeling the tears arise. "Not again." I plead, but I can't help when I taste the salty droplets. I remember Jenn so clearly and I miss her. Her smile, her hair, her laugh...ugh and then she goes and sleeps with my best friend.God my life is so screwed up.
...or was I always the problem. Was I always the issue with us living on a reality T.V. show? Could she not handle it? I could've worked this out, we could've made a compromise. It's always my fault.
Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like Being alone?
I'll find someone new
"Bam?" I hear a strongly accented voice call. I turn to see Ville.
"Ville? What the hell are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in Finland right now?" I question. I don't know why, but I'm slightly amused at this. Maybe I'm glad to actually be worth someone caring for.
"Eh, I'm off for a while...and I wanted to see you," He replies and I'm truly touched. I missed Wille Walo.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
"Oh..."I quietly reply.
"Bam," He asks looking at me, "were you crying?" I reluctantly shake my head 'yes'. I'm embarassed to admit that I'm still depressed and all bipolar about the whole Jenn situation. I should be over her. I can have whoever I want, right? Right?
"What for?" Ville asks comming over and sitting down next to me. I sigh, feet dangling off the edge of the roof, myself slightly swaying them.
"Jen. I loved her," I reply. Ville nods his head and wraps an arm around my shoulder. Giving it a tight squeeze he replies, "Hey, that's why I'm here. I'm your best friend, your shoulder to cry on if you will."
I smile and look up at him.
"Thanks, Ville."
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings to arise
She knows I was wrong
15 minutes 'til midnight.
"Ville?" I ask.
"What Bam?" He answers, arm still around my shoulder.
"Do you think the reason things didn't work out between me and Jenn is because..." I drift off.
"Because what?" He asks. I scrunch my eyes up tightly.
"Because I'm gay?"
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I into a new love
"Bam? You're gay?" He questions.
"I don't know Ville," I honestly reply opening my eyes.
"Well, have you ever felt attraction towards a guy?" He asks. Oh yes...definitely. There's one person I can think of.
"Uhm, yeah, I guess," I reply, a blush creeping onto my face. Thank god for nighttime.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
5 minutes til midnight.
"Who? I won't tell. You can trust me," Ville says lighting up a cigarette. God, that sounds so cliche 5th grade.
"Uhm, not this time. I can't tell you," I reply. I feel ashamed I can't tell him, but I'd be mortified if he found out that I'd been lusting over him. He takes a long drag and sighs.
"Bam...look, I was in the same situation you're in," Ville says. The smoke flows out of his mouth and infront of his face in pure beauty. He's amazing.
Wait-recap: Ville is gay!?
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
"Ville?" I softly call. Weak, almost. As if reading my mind he replies, "No, I'm not gay, I'm bisexual." He has no shame or guilt saying this.
"And I am in love...with someone who is aswell in the same situation as us," He says taking another long drag.
"Someone named Brandon Margera," He quietly finishes.
Bury me
You thought your problems were gone
Carry me
Away, away, away
10, 9, 8, 7...
He exstingushes his cigarette and looks at me.
"Brandon Margera, I love you," He says. I realize ever since that day when I shyly lifted up my teeshirt to show how I branded myself with the same tattoo as him that I had been in love. He's been the one I've loved all along. From fan obsession, to secret lust, to a desperate need.
"Ville...I love you, too."
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
6, 5, 4, 3, 2...
Ville stares me down and leans in. Green eyes making me feel like shying away. His gaze is powerful.
"You don't have to know, just feel," He whispers and presses his sweet lips up to mine, hand curling into mine. Why does this feel so right? It feels like we're meant to be.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?
1: Happy New Year!
Oh my god! Did Ville Valo just...is he now...? I close my eyes and kiss back, totally new to this feeling. He pulls away and smiles smally at me. I blush as the holiday greeting is said to me.
"Happy New Years, Bam."
"Same to you Ville, same to you."