09 phobias | voice | december 14

[cursedwithagift]

It's going to be Christmas in a few days. [Monk sounds incredibly somber, something that might be startling to those only familiar with his insanity]It wasn't even close to winter at home, but I guess in this world it counts...this will be thirteen years since she died. I don't - I left flowers at the graveyard. I know, I know that she's not there

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[Voice]

[thricepawned]

[Itou peers at this post with some curiosity. He had been seeing so many children here that he was wondering if the ratio was majorly skewed against adults. This seems like a sad adult, however.]

Coming from a person who's-- died. I don't believe we know these things. When you die, things cease being.

Although I suppose if someone I liked well enough were to carry on with a tradition of this sort, I would prefer if they felt better for the act than otherwise.

[Voice]

[cursedwithagift]

I've seen her before, at home. It's different here though, I think. [he pauses, sighs a little]

I hope she can't see me.

[Voice]

[thricepawned]

I doubt if she can. It would be rather strange of the BREW to bring the dead here without bringing them back to life. [Like him, is what he means.]

[Voice]

[cursedwithagift]

I don't mean to bring them, just - just let them watch.

[Text]

[toomanypetals]

If you think you're useless, just find a way to be useful.

[Text]

[cursedwithagift]

I don't think, I know I'm useless. But I only have one way to fix that, and it isn't available for the most part here.

[Text]

[toomanypetals]

If you're human, you can find a way to do more. Of course, the more you tell yourself you can't, the more you won't be able to.

[Text]

[cursedwithagift]

I'm still alive for a reason. I only have that reason.

[ voice ]

[maashiro]

[there's just a long silence in the beginning which, if Monk could see it, would be Kenshin's staring in shock at his device for... well, quite a while. and then he manages to speak.]

She can see them.

[ voice ]

[cursedwithagift]

I was afraid of that. [he pauses, thinking] I have a lot to make up to her, then, if she's watching.

[ voice ]

[maashiro]

That, this one understands...

But you're never better off alone. And this one is sure she sees and thanks you for the flowers left in thought of her.

[ voice ]

[cursedwithagift]

I hope she saw them. I want her to know, even if I solved her case I'm still thinking of her. Even just with something like that.

[Voice]

[zerozerovier]

[...

He really shouldn't respond to this. It's not any of his business.

.......]

What was her name?

[Voice]

[cursedwithagift]

Trudy. Her name was Trudy Monk. [there's equal amounts of pain and love in his voice when he says her name]

[Voice]

[zerozerovier]

[He knows that feeling.]

Whether Trudy can see the flowers or not, I'm sure she'd appreciate that you're keeping her memory alive.

[Voice]

[cursedwithagift]

I put her to rest not that long before I came here. I think...I think that her memory is just for me now.

voice;

[givingsword]

How can you talk that way about yourself...

voice;

[cursedwithagift]

Easily. It's the truth. [he doesn't sound upset about it, more like he's stating a dry fact]

voice;

[givingsword]

Nobody is useless. [Please stop acting like Kenshin right now /)_(\]

voice;

[cursedwithagift]

Except in very specific circumstances, I am. That's just how it is.