All One Can Find [Story&Art]

[soserendipity]

Title: All One Can Find
Author/Artist: soserendipity
Genre: SPN
Characters/Pairing: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester. Mentions of Castiel and Rowena. No pairings.
Rating: NC-17
Wordcount: ~4,500 words
Warnings/Spoilers: Blood, guts, and gore. Possibly suicidal ideation. Dark stuff. [Click for story-spoilery warning.]Major character death. Spoilers for everything until 10.22, to be on the safe

Comments

[themegalosaurus]

I loved this!! Beautifully written and very painful. The thought of Sam back in the cage is horrendous.

[soserendipity]

And now we even got it in canon! I'm not sure I'm happy Sam had to go through that again, but I'm still going to say, "Called it!" :)

I'm glad you liked this one, hunny. I just needed to get all the horror and despair out of my head after that episode and I'm happy I could share it with you. Well, that sounded better in my head. I hope you know what I meant. Much love!

[elsewhere91]

Ow ow ow, this is so heartbreaking.

This is such a beautifully written fic but so painful to read, especially at the end. Poor Sam.

[soserendipity]

Aw, thank you for your lovely words. I'm glad this story spoke to you on that level.

And sorry for this seriously late reply, I was absent from LJ for a few months and am just now catching up on things again. I very much appreciate that you took the time to comment!

[vampg1rl]

Oh wow. Utterly amazing, but I feel like I've got rocks in my tummy. Not my Sam! Dean did this. He's the cause of it. Seems only right Dean should be the one to pay the price. But no matter how things play out, it's always Sam's fault somehow. You captured that element of canon and Sam's nature so well. And even though this broke my heart, I really do love this. It's so beautifully written. xo

[soserendipity]

Thank you for your thoughtful comment! I really struggled with this, too, it was one of he few scenes that honestly shocked me, and not in a here-comes-the-monster kind of way.

I'm glad that the writers didn't have Sam go this way because I'm not sure they could have come back from something like this, but I could see Sam finally breaking after this. After everything they've both been through and then to validate what he feared all his life, being impure and not worthy and that he'd better have died and just, ugh. Poor Sam.

Anyway. Sorry. Obviously still a sore spot with me. Also, apologies for this seriously late reply, I was absent from LJ for a few months and am just now catching up on things again. I very much appreciate that you took the time to comment, though!

[flawedteacup]

Umm, I was kind of hoping not to rip out my heart until after the finale, but you kinda took care of that with this fic. Really really well written!

[soserendipity]

Sorry about the heartache, my dear, but a good helping of tears now and then is good for your health, you know. (I totally made that up but I have no excuse for putting Sam through this ordeal and I'm grasping at straws here.)

No, seriously, thank you for your lovely comment; I appreciate that you took the time to share your thoughts. And sorry for this seriously late reply, I was absent from LJ for a few months and am just now catching up on things again.

[ameliacareful]

Was so glad to read this--was so afraid that the finale would not offer both boys redemption and was glad to have this going in.

[soserendipity]

I never felt the need to write an episode tag before, but after this one I just couldn't let it go. I too was scared of what we'd get in the finale and somehow, I always thought that the MoC would end with fratrizide. I mean, it's Cain for god's sake, you know?

Thank you for taking the time to comment, I'm glad you liked this one.