Been a long time since I posted to this…I’m going to be a father very soon and am nervous and excited about it~. I saw my little girl’s face two days ago and fell in love with her smile. It feels very real, and I’m pretty scared. I know I’ll do whatever it takes for my children, but just worried about the things I can’t control. I have prayed ( Read more... )

Watching a cnn special on Tokyo, I really wish I could go again. So what's new? Not much. I'm waiting to go flying again. I suppose I'm sick. I thought I might have meningitis bc my neck is stiff, headache, and feel like crap. However , I'm not stupid enough to go to an ER bc I know they would stick a large needle in my back to extract spinal ( Read more... )

What is God's plan for me? I'm almost 30, and I still can't answer this question. What is the legacy I will leave behind? My family members are my brothers in arms who I'd gladly lay down my life for. Perhaps this requires more prayer.

Stripes to bars ( Read more... )

I have been an ER nurse for a little more over a year. It's pretty intense. I'm still doing the military thing and transporting patients from distant lands. Both of these jobs don't leave much free time. I was able to visit my birthplace in Germany, and it was irritating that I couldn't speak German, yet I blended in as long as I kept my mouth ( Read more... )

I spread my wings ( Read more... )

Well, I scored 80's on the last two tests barely staying in the program. That was a close call. I wasn't able to take summer school, so I worked all summer for the military. I found out that becoming staff sergeant is not all it's cracked up to be. People just use that to humiliate me more. "You're a staff sergeant, you should know better." ( Read more... )

AAARRRRGGG, so what if i change my ideas about life, so what if I want to constantly change my plans. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH that somehow feels better.

Test tomorrow decides if i stay in the program or get booted out. This should be fun. Have to score an 80 or look for a new job. God, i'm so nervous.

bro took sister to hospital. she ate sushi last night, but started a new medication that has a 1/1000 chance of killing you with a brain fever of sorts. I woke up and spent my morning cleaning shitake mushrooms and other sushi stuff off floor, wall, and doors. I think my sis set a new record. I quit smoking like two weeks ago, but started again ( Read more... )