And With No Love
Title: And With No Love
Author: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: JE
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Kitayama Hiromitsu x Fujigaya Taisuke, Yokoo Wataru x Kitayama Hiromitsu, Yokoo Wataru x Fujigaya Taisuke
Warnings: Angst, lots of unrequited love
Notes: As requested by/dedicated to kira_shadow.
From the Beginning | There was No Hope | Only Despair | And With No Love | Where is the Happiness | For the Three of Us
And With No Love
By Shattered Tenshi
The game started two months, three weeks, and two days ago, and Hiromitsu was somewhat amused that this was their fifth time entering an arcade on their dates. Not that he minded though because he was allowed to dote on, spoil Taisuke without needing any special reason.
Hiromitsu was glad that he could make Taisuke smile. Maybe those smiles weren't exactly the same as the ones Taisuke would give Wataru, but it was close, and that thought comforted Hiromitsu. It was a sign that perhaps they didn't make a wrong decision after all.
Then again, Wataru still worried him. Hiromitsu had no idea how do dates between Taisuke and Wataru go, and if Wataru actually treat those dates as proper dates. There had been moments where he had doubted Wataru, but it wasn't like he could force Wataru to treat Taisuke better. Things didn't work that way.
If he thought about it, Taisuke was the one who suggested this, so it would make sense for the other to follow the rules. Otherwise, Taisuke would feel guilty, Hiromitsu had no doubt about it. He followed the rules because he knew it would make Taisuke feel happy, but Wataru?
Wataru didn't really have any choice in this game, being the last one to agree. That's why Hiromitsu was worried the more he thought about it. There were one or two times where he noticed Taisuke looking depressed after going on dates with Wataru. He wanted to know what happened, but he knew neither of them would tell him.
Taisuke wouldn't want him to worry and Wataru wouldn't want to make him upset if he really did break any rules of their game. Hiromitsu sometimes wondered if it was a bad thing, to be able to see things so clearly. Sooner or later, he was going to feel the stress, probably.
"Hiro!" Hiromitsu looked up and found Taisuke waving at him to go over. The way Taisuke was grinning happily made him chuckle, and he figured the other had found something he wanted among all the UFO catchers in the arcade. Nodding his head, he walked over to Taisuke.
"Ne, I want this!" Taisuke said, tapping against the glass of the machine several times as he pointed to what he wanted. Hiromitsu followed the invisible line Taisuke's finger drew and raised an eyebrow when he saw a pair of small rabbit plushies lying inside the machine.
A light chuckle, Hiromitsu asked, "Didn't you get plushies the last time we came here? The time before that? Though, I guess they were different characters, and not a pair like this one." He paused before nudging Taisuke, "Are you going to give one of the bunnies to me if I get you them?"
Taisuke blushed lightly. "They're cute though!" He didn't reply Hiromitsu's question as to where the other rabbit might go. "And this time, I want to try getting them myself! Hiro always gets things for me, so this time, I want to get them myself! That's okay, right?"
Hiromitsu laughed. "Why wouldn't it be okay? You don't have to ask me." He studied where the pair of stuffed animals was lying. "You'll probably need some help though..." He called a worker over to open the machine and move the rabbits to a easier spot to get. "There you go," he said after thanking the worker.
Puffing up his cheeks, Taisuke wrinkled his nose. "I could have done without that, but fine." He took out some coins and entered enough for a few plays into the machine. At first, Taisuke was really focused and was determined to succeed, but just before he was about to start his fifth try, he stopped.
"What?" Hiromitsu couldn't help but grin at the 'help me' expression that Taisuke was giving him. He could almost hear Taisuke whine, even though he didn't even say anything yet. "Need help?" Hearing Taisuke mumble something about how he didn't want to get help, he just continued to grin when Taisuke nodded his head.
"Watch the pro then," Hiromitsu said as he ruffled Taisuke's hair with a smile, which made the other yelp. With just two more tries later, the pair of rabbit stuffed animals fell down into the chute successfully, and Hiromitsu bent down to take them out, handing them to Taisuke. "Here you go."
Taisuke's cheeks turned a light red and took them from Hiromitsu, hugging the plushies close. "Hiro really is good at this." He pouted slightly, probably not satisfied that he wasn't able to win the rabbits on his own. He poked the rabbits through the plastic, studying them, now that he had them in his arms.
Shaking his head, Hiromitsu said, "Nah, your first few tries helped, Taisuke. Got them into an even better spot, otherwise, I would have needed a few more tries to get those bunnies for you." Just then, a worker came up to them, congratulating them and handed them a plastic bag to hold the stuffed animals in.
They ended up staying in the arcade longer than expected, finding a few more games they wanted to play. By the time they stepped out of the place, the sun was setting and Hiromitsu could feel his stomach growling in complaint. Turning to Taisuke, he asked, "Anything special you want to eat?"
Taisuke tilted his head and thought for a second. "Nothing really," he smiled and looked at Hiromitsu. "Does Hiro have anything you want to eat? Or maybe, do you know a good restaurant you want to go to?" At Taisuke's question, an idea popped into Hiromitsu's mind.
Grinning, Hiromitsu asked, "Taisuke, let's go grocery shopping now." At Taisuke's confused look, his grin widened a little more. "I'll treat you to Kitayama-style hamburgers, how's that? I promise it'll taste good," he said as he crossed his arms over his chest.
Taisuke's eyes brightened. "Really? Okay! I've never tried Hiro's cooking before...since before, you always said you'd bring a full natto course if we wanted to taste your cooking..." He asked in amusement, "Is this going to be a full course then? From soup to dessert, everything?"
"If you want?" Hiromitsu chuckled. "I believe I have leftover miso soup in the fridge, and we can always buy cake or pudding or whatever you want for dessert later at the supermarket?" He started walking towards the direction of the station, deciding it was better to talk as they walked.
"Mh..." Taisuke pretended to tap his finger against his chin in thought, nose wrinkling for a moment. "Fine, I'll try your Kitayama-style hamburger. If it doesn't taste good, you'll have to make it up to me!" He paused. "I haven't thought about how you can do that yet though."
Hiromitsu laughed. "Well, take your time thinking about it then. I'm certain I won't have to make it up for you though. My mom has tried my cooking and she certainly hadn't complained. And no, she wasn't being biased," he answered before Taisuke could ask. "I would know. My taste buds work properly, for your information."
Taisuke kept on doubting Hiromitsu's cooking skills on the train ride as well, but once they got to the supermarket, Hiromitsu made sure Taisuke was distracted enough so he would stop talking about that. Of course, he also let Taisuke choose the desserts they'll have that night as well.
Once they were back at Hiromitsu's apartment - his mother was out working a night shift and won't be back until early morning - Hiromitsu kicked Taisuke out of the kitchen since he was supposed to be the one cooking for the other and told Taisuke to do whatever he wanted in the living room.
After a few times of attempting to see how Hiromitsu was doing, Taisuke gave up and stayed in the living room like he was told. When Hiromitsu came out with their meals though, he chuckled, realizing why the other didn’t bother him at all after a few tries. Setting down the plates on the table, he padded over towards the couch.
Crouching down, Hiromitsu studied Taisuke's sleeping for a moment. The other was so defenseless like that, almost tempting him. He cupped Taisuke's cheek with a hand lightly, rubbing soft skin with the side of his thumb. When Taisuke made a small sound but didn't wake up, he chuckled to himself.
Hiromitsu really hoped he could see Taisuke's sleeping face many more times after this. Despite this being game, and the feelings of wanting Taisuke to be his only will only grow, at the same, he was satisfied that he was able to see sides of Taisuke that he wouldn't have seen before. His feelings were filled with contradictions really.
Shaking his head, Hiromitsu ran his fingers through Taisuke's hair and called out softly, "Tai-chan? Wake up. Dinner is ready." He shouldn't think of those thoughts right now. Dinner is getting cold. "Come on, Kitayama-style hamburgers are best served while hot, okay?" He pecked Taisuke on the cheek.
Hiromitsu stood up and turned around, but without looking, he could already see the surprised look that would appear on Taisuke's face briefly before he would just blush lightly and act normally once again. As expected, he heard the other behind him, "I won't hold back then! Food time!"
Dinner lasted for a good while as they took their time to eat, but as Hiromitsu watched Taisuke collapsed on the couch with a satisfied sigh, he decided that it went well. "Well?" he asked as he carried a tray holding two cups and the puddings Taisuke had chosen towards the coffee table. "How was it?"
"It was delicious!" Taisuke beamed at him. "Hiro, your hamburgers are almost as good as the ones my mom cooks! Of course, you still can't beat her though," he said with a nod. "You should teach me how to cook! I still don't cook a lot unless my friends come over or something..."
"Does that you're going to cook for me?" Hiromitsu grinned as he sat down beside Taisuke. "I'm going to look forward to that. It'll be an interesting experience," he laughed, despite the whining sound Taisuke made. "Here," he handed Taisuke one of the cups, filled with hot tea.
A small pout on his face, Taisuke took the cup from Hiromitsu anyways, wrapping both his hands around the warm cup. He blew on the tea before taking a small sip. "I've never cooked for people I work with," he mumbled. "Only for friends from high school times..."
Hiromitsu wondered what Taisuke was thinking as he said that. Was Wataru on his mind? Did Taisuke want to cook for Wataru instead of him? He wasn't sure. He didn't say anything and passed the pudding to Taisuke instead, which the other took after one more sip of the tea and placed the cup back down.
"Mh, I'm so full!" Taisuke exclaimed moments later, his spoon sitting in the empty pudding cup. He rolled around on the couch before just relaxing himself and sat almost sprawled on the couch. A happy smile appeared on his face and he closed his eyes for a moment from the satisfaction.
Chuckling, Hiromitsu said, "Of course you're full. You ate quite a bit, even though usually you don't eat a lot. Maa, I guess that proves my cooking really was that good?" Taisuke just laughed in response and didn't bother to answer properly. Hiromitsu raised an eyebrow but smiled as well.
A few seconds later, Hiromitsu found himself studying the profile of Taisuke's face. It was so rare to be able to see Taisuke like this so close, right beside him. The other was relaxed, happy, and with his eyes closed, Taisuke almost looked younger. Subconsciously leaning closer, Hiromitsu whispered, "Tai-chan, can I kiss you?"
Each time, Hiromitsu couldn't help but ask. Even though that might just remind them that this was part of the game, he couldn't help it. He didn't want to do anything that Taisuke didn't want, and because he didn't want to hurt the other, he would end up being cautious. Too cautious, perhaps.
Taisuke fluttered his eyes opened and turned his head, staring into Hiromitsu's eyes. "Un," Taisuke agreed softly and leaned over himself, pressing their lips together. Hiromitsu's arms immediately wrapped around Taisuke's waist, pulling the other closer to him.
From one kiss, things went on from there, and some time later, Hiromitsu was staring at Taisuke who was underneath him, both on top of Hiromitsu's bed. "Does it hurt?" he murmured, as he pushed his finger further into the other slowly. He nuzzled against Taisuke, as if to tell him to relax.
"I'm okay," Taisuke mumbled back, arching his back up slightly. He pulled up himself and brushed his lips against the other’s collarbone. "You don't have to be so careful," he said, though his arms tightened around Hiromitsu's neck, and Hiromitsu's heart clenched for a moment, knowing what he might be thinking about.
Murmuring soft and comforting words into Taisuke's ear, Hiromitsu didn't respond to Taisuke's comment and just took his time preparing Taisuke. When he deemed Taisuke well stretched, he pulled out his fingers and covered himself with lube. "Relax," Hiromitsu said as he pressed a kiss on to Taisuke's lips.
Hands on Taisuke's waist, Hiromitsu found Taisuke's entrance, pressed against it for a moment before pushing in. At the heat and tightness, Hiromitsu groaned lowly. He pushed until he was fully inside Taisuke before stopping and waited for Taisuke to get used to it.
"Hiro is always so kind," Taisuke said softly. "You can move..." He rocked his hips against Hiromitsu's hips once, then twice. Hiromitsu frowned, but his expression quickly changed as he followed Taisuke's instructions, thrusting into the other. "Hiro..." Taisuke moaned.
Hiromitsu wanted to tell Taisuke that he was kind, he was gentle with him because he loved him, but the words felt too heavy for this moment and he didn't want to ruin it. Instead, he focused on Taisuke, the heat and the tightness around him, and moaned Taisuke's name back in response, moving until they both reached their climaxes.
Brushing his hand through Taisuke's bangs, Hiromitsu waited until the other was asleep to whisper those three words into Taisuke's ear.
Finishing putting his skates on, Hiromitsu looked up, trying to see if the rest of his members were ready for practice. His eyes landed on Taisuke, who was fooling around with Senga and Tamamori, and he smiled softly. It looked like it was going to take a while for rehearsal to start for them then.
"Yo, Hiro." Hiromitsu turned his head and blinked when he found Totsuka sitting right beside him, hand casually placed on his shoulder. When did the other get here? "So, anything interesting happened lately?" The way the other was looking at him made Hiromitsu think the question wasn't as simple as it sounded.
Hiromitsu wondered if Totsuka noticed something. After all, he was pretty sure the other had already guessed his feelings for Taisuke without him admitting to anything. Rules were rules though, however, so he shook his head, "Not really? Why? Anything interesting happened to you then?"
Totsuka raised an eyebrow, as if he didn't believe what Hiromitsu had said. He frowned for a moment and opened his mouth to speak when his group members called him over. Running a hand through his hair, Totsuka said, "I'll talk to you later." With that, he ran back to his group.
Hiromitsu shook his head and turned his attention back to his own group. It seemed like most of them were ready. Getting up, he skated towards where they were gathering and started to plan what they were going to do for rehearsal. At these moments, Hiromitsu acted normally, as did Taisuke and Wataru.
Everything was going well, until the younger Juniors started to practice as well. It seemed like there were quite a few young fresh Juniors were around and while Taisuke were practicing a new routine, skating backwards towards each other, one of them stumbled right on to their path.
When Hiromitsu realized what had happened, he was sitting on the floor, his butt aching from the fall. He immediately turned to look at Taisuke, but Wataru was already hovering over him, and kept on asking how he was doing and if he was okay, if he needed anything.
Mumbling how he was fine to Senga and Goseki, Taisuke looked up and saw how Wataru was worried about Hiromitsu. It was times like this that people who show their real feelings, right? Taisuke's heart clenched, and in his head, he cried out for Wataru to look at him.
Taisuke pressed a hand against his chest and couldn't look over at Wataru and Hiromitsu anymore. No matter how long this game continued, he was never going to gain a position like Hiromitsu in Wataru's right? Muttering something about the washroom, Taisuke got up quickly and skated out of the room.
It was a few seconds after he left that Wataru turned to look for Taisuke, only to find him gone.
Taisuke didn't choose alcohol this time. For some reason, he was thinking enough to know that drinking alcohol alone was dangerous for him as an idol and bad for his body as well. It was why instead of drowning himself in alcohol right now, he was drowning himself in the blasting music on the dance floor.
Squished between moving bodies in the crowd, Taisuke tried to forget about Wataru worrying over Hiromitsu only, not looking at him even once, even though the same thing happened him. He wasn't sure for how long he was dancing, letting other people press up against him and grind back.
"Fujigaya, what the hell are you doing?" Finding himself spun around and starting into familiar eyes looking at him quite angrily, Taisuke smiled and wrapped his arms around that person's neck. Stepping closer, he tilted his head innocently and leaned in close enough so the other could hear him.
"Want to take me home, Takizawa-kun?"
Author's Note: As I'm sure all of you have managed to guess from previous parts, this part is focused on HiroSuke. Taisuke really is the most emo of the three after all, lol. XD; Hiro is almost bitter sweet because of the way he cares about Taisuke, and would do anything to make Taisuke happy.
Where is this heading towards? Guess. X3 (And like, it's the first part that people other than OT3 actually spoke! ...I think. 8D; )
Mh...I don't have much to say anyways.
Comments are love and appreciated~
Author: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: JE
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Kitayama Hiromitsu x Fujigaya Taisuke, Yokoo Wataru x Kitayama Hiromitsu, Yokoo Wataru x Fujigaya Taisuke
Warnings: Angst, lots of unrequited love
Notes: As requested by/dedicated to kira_shadow.
From the Beginning | There was No Hope | Only Despair | And With No Love | Where is the Happiness | For the Three of Us
And With No Love
By Shattered Tenshi
The game started two months, three weeks, and two days ago, and Hiromitsu was somewhat amused that this was their fifth time entering an arcade on their dates. Not that he minded though because he was allowed to dote on, spoil Taisuke without needing any special reason.
Hiromitsu was glad that he could make Taisuke smile. Maybe those smiles weren't exactly the same as the ones Taisuke would give Wataru, but it was close, and that thought comforted Hiromitsu. It was a sign that perhaps they didn't make a wrong decision after all.
Then again, Wataru still worried him. Hiromitsu had no idea how do dates between Taisuke and Wataru go, and if Wataru actually treat those dates as proper dates. There had been moments where he had doubted Wataru, but it wasn't like he could force Wataru to treat Taisuke better. Things didn't work that way.
If he thought about it, Taisuke was the one who suggested this, so it would make sense for the other to follow the rules. Otherwise, Taisuke would feel guilty, Hiromitsu had no doubt about it. He followed the rules because he knew it would make Taisuke feel happy, but Wataru?
Wataru didn't really have any choice in this game, being the last one to agree. That's why Hiromitsu was worried the more he thought about it. There were one or two times where he noticed Taisuke looking depressed after going on dates with Wataru. He wanted to know what happened, but he knew neither of them would tell him.
Taisuke wouldn't want him to worry and Wataru wouldn't want to make him upset if he really did break any rules of their game. Hiromitsu sometimes wondered if it was a bad thing, to be able to see things so clearly. Sooner or later, he was going to feel the stress, probably.
"Hiro!" Hiromitsu looked up and found Taisuke waving at him to go over. The way Taisuke was grinning happily made him chuckle, and he figured the other had found something he wanted among all the UFO catchers in the arcade. Nodding his head, he walked over to Taisuke.
"Ne, I want this!" Taisuke said, tapping against the glass of the machine several times as he pointed to what he wanted. Hiromitsu followed the invisible line Taisuke's finger drew and raised an eyebrow when he saw a pair of small rabbit plushies lying inside the machine.
A light chuckle, Hiromitsu asked, "Didn't you get plushies the last time we came here? The time before that? Though, I guess they were different characters, and not a pair like this one." He paused before nudging Taisuke, "Are you going to give one of the bunnies to me if I get you them?"
Taisuke blushed lightly. "They're cute though!" He didn't reply Hiromitsu's question as to where the other rabbit might go. "And this time, I want to try getting them myself! Hiro always gets things for me, so this time, I want to get them myself! That's okay, right?"
Hiromitsu laughed. "Why wouldn't it be okay? You don't have to ask me." He studied where the pair of stuffed animals was lying. "You'll probably need some help though..." He called a worker over to open the machine and move the rabbits to a easier spot to get. "There you go," he said after thanking the worker.
Puffing up his cheeks, Taisuke wrinkled his nose. "I could have done without that, but fine." He took out some coins and entered enough for a few plays into the machine. At first, Taisuke was really focused and was determined to succeed, but just before he was about to start his fifth try, he stopped.
"What?" Hiromitsu couldn't help but grin at the 'help me' expression that Taisuke was giving him. He could almost hear Taisuke whine, even though he didn't even say anything yet. "Need help?" Hearing Taisuke mumble something about how he didn't want to get help, he just continued to grin when Taisuke nodded his head.
"Watch the pro then," Hiromitsu said as he ruffled Taisuke's hair with a smile, which made the other yelp. With just two more tries later, the pair of rabbit stuffed animals fell down into the chute successfully, and Hiromitsu bent down to take them out, handing them to Taisuke. "Here you go."
Taisuke's cheeks turned a light red and took them from Hiromitsu, hugging the plushies close. "Hiro really is good at this." He pouted slightly, probably not satisfied that he wasn't able to win the rabbits on his own. He poked the rabbits through the plastic, studying them, now that he had them in his arms.
Shaking his head, Hiromitsu said, "Nah, your first few tries helped, Taisuke. Got them into an even better spot, otherwise, I would have needed a few more tries to get those bunnies for you." Just then, a worker came up to them, congratulating them and handed them a plastic bag to hold the stuffed animals in.
They ended up staying in the arcade longer than expected, finding a few more games they wanted to play. By the time they stepped out of the place, the sun was setting and Hiromitsu could feel his stomach growling in complaint. Turning to Taisuke, he asked, "Anything special you want to eat?"
Taisuke tilted his head and thought for a second. "Nothing really," he smiled and looked at Hiromitsu. "Does Hiro have anything you want to eat? Or maybe, do you know a good restaurant you want to go to?" At Taisuke's question, an idea popped into Hiromitsu's mind.
Grinning, Hiromitsu asked, "Taisuke, let's go grocery shopping now." At Taisuke's confused look, his grin widened a little more. "I'll treat you to Kitayama-style hamburgers, how's that? I promise it'll taste good," he said as he crossed his arms over his chest.
Taisuke's eyes brightened. "Really? Okay! I've never tried Hiro's cooking before...since before, you always said you'd bring a full natto course if we wanted to taste your cooking..." He asked in amusement, "Is this going to be a full course then? From soup to dessert, everything?"
"If you want?" Hiromitsu chuckled. "I believe I have leftover miso soup in the fridge, and we can always buy cake or pudding or whatever you want for dessert later at the supermarket?" He started walking towards the direction of the station, deciding it was better to talk as they walked.
"Mh..." Taisuke pretended to tap his finger against his chin in thought, nose wrinkling for a moment. "Fine, I'll try your Kitayama-style hamburger. If it doesn't taste good, you'll have to make it up to me!" He paused. "I haven't thought about how you can do that yet though."
Hiromitsu laughed. "Well, take your time thinking about it then. I'm certain I won't have to make it up for you though. My mom has tried my cooking and she certainly hadn't complained. And no, she wasn't being biased," he answered before Taisuke could ask. "I would know. My taste buds work properly, for your information."
Taisuke kept on doubting Hiromitsu's cooking skills on the train ride as well, but once they got to the supermarket, Hiromitsu made sure Taisuke was distracted enough so he would stop talking about that. Of course, he also let Taisuke choose the desserts they'll have that night as well.
Once they were back at Hiromitsu's apartment - his mother was out working a night shift and won't be back until early morning - Hiromitsu kicked Taisuke out of the kitchen since he was supposed to be the one cooking for the other and told Taisuke to do whatever he wanted in the living room.
After a few times of attempting to see how Hiromitsu was doing, Taisuke gave up and stayed in the living room like he was told. When Hiromitsu came out with their meals though, he chuckled, realizing why the other didn’t bother him at all after a few tries. Setting down the plates on the table, he padded over towards the couch.
Crouching down, Hiromitsu studied Taisuke's sleeping for a moment. The other was so defenseless like that, almost tempting him. He cupped Taisuke's cheek with a hand lightly, rubbing soft skin with the side of his thumb. When Taisuke made a small sound but didn't wake up, he chuckled to himself.
Hiromitsu really hoped he could see Taisuke's sleeping face many more times after this. Despite this being game, and the feelings of wanting Taisuke to be his only will only grow, at the same, he was satisfied that he was able to see sides of Taisuke that he wouldn't have seen before. His feelings were filled with contradictions really.
Shaking his head, Hiromitsu ran his fingers through Taisuke's hair and called out softly, "Tai-chan? Wake up. Dinner is ready." He shouldn't think of those thoughts right now. Dinner is getting cold. "Come on, Kitayama-style hamburgers are best served while hot, okay?" He pecked Taisuke on the cheek.
Hiromitsu stood up and turned around, but without looking, he could already see the surprised look that would appear on Taisuke's face briefly before he would just blush lightly and act normally once again. As expected, he heard the other behind him, "I won't hold back then! Food time!"
Dinner lasted for a good while as they took their time to eat, but as Hiromitsu watched Taisuke collapsed on the couch with a satisfied sigh, he decided that it went well. "Well?" he asked as he carried a tray holding two cups and the puddings Taisuke had chosen towards the coffee table. "How was it?"
"It was delicious!" Taisuke beamed at him. "Hiro, your hamburgers are almost as good as the ones my mom cooks! Of course, you still can't beat her though," he said with a nod. "You should teach me how to cook! I still don't cook a lot unless my friends come over or something..."
"Does that you're going to cook for me?" Hiromitsu grinned as he sat down beside Taisuke. "I'm going to look forward to that. It'll be an interesting experience," he laughed, despite the whining sound Taisuke made. "Here," he handed Taisuke one of the cups, filled with hot tea.
A small pout on his face, Taisuke took the cup from Hiromitsu anyways, wrapping both his hands around the warm cup. He blew on the tea before taking a small sip. "I've never cooked for people I work with," he mumbled. "Only for friends from high school times..."
Hiromitsu wondered what Taisuke was thinking as he said that. Was Wataru on his mind? Did Taisuke want to cook for Wataru instead of him? He wasn't sure. He didn't say anything and passed the pudding to Taisuke instead, which the other took after one more sip of the tea and placed the cup back down.
"Mh, I'm so full!" Taisuke exclaimed moments later, his spoon sitting in the empty pudding cup. He rolled around on the couch before just relaxing himself and sat almost sprawled on the couch. A happy smile appeared on his face and he closed his eyes for a moment from the satisfaction.
Chuckling, Hiromitsu said, "Of course you're full. You ate quite a bit, even though usually you don't eat a lot. Maa, I guess that proves my cooking really was that good?" Taisuke just laughed in response and didn't bother to answer properly. Hiromitsu raised an eyebrow but smiled as well.
A few seconds later, Hiromitsu found himself studying the profile of Taisuke's face. It was so rare to be able to see Taisuke like this so close, right beside him. The other was relaxed, happy, and with his eyes closed, Taisuke almost looked younger. Subconsciously leaning closer, Hiromitsu whispered, "Tai-chan, can I kiss you?"
Each time, Hiromitsu couldn't help but ask. Even though that might just remind them that this was part of the game, he couldn't help it. He didn't want to do anything that Taisuke didn't want, and because he didn't want to hurt the other, he would end up being cautious. Too cautious, perhaps.
Taisuke fluttered his eyes opened and turned his head, staring into Hiromitsu's eyes. "Un," Taisuke agreed softly and leaned over himself, pressing their lips together. Hiromitsu's arms immediately wrapped around Taisuke's waist, pulling the other closer to him.
From one kiss, things went on from there, and some time later, Hiromitsu was staring at Taisuke who was underneath him, both on top of Hiromitsu's bed. "Does it hurt?" he murmured, as he pushed his finger further into the other slowly. He nuzzled against Taisuke, as if to tell him to relax.
"I'm okay," Taisuke mumbled back, arching his back up slightly. He pulled up himself and brushed his lips against the other’s collarbone. "You don't have to be so careful," he said, though his arms tightened around Hiromitsu's neck, and Hiromitsu's heart clenched for a moment, knowing what he might be thinking about.
Murmuring soft and comforting words into Taisuke's ear, Hiromitsu didn't respond to Taisuke's comment and just took his time preparing Taisuke. When he deemed Taisuke well stretched, he pulled out his fingers and covered himself with lube. "Relax," Hiromitsu said as he pressed a kiss on to Taisuke's lips.
Hands on Taisuke's waist, Hiromitsu found Taisuke's entrance, pressed against it for a moment before pushing in. At the heat and tightness, Hiromitsu groaned lowly. He pushed until he was fully inside Taisuke before stopping and waited for Taisuke to get used to it.
"Hiro is always so kind," Taisuke said softly. "You can move..." He rocked his hips against Hiromitsu's hips once, then twice. Hiromitsu frowned, but his expression quickly changed as he followed Taisuke's instructions, thrusting into the other. "Hiro..." Taisuke moaned.
Hiromitsu wanted to tell Taisuke that he was kind, he was gentle with him because he loved him, but the words felt too heavy for this moment and he didn't want to ruin it. Instead, he focused on Taisuke, the heat and the tightness around him, and moaned Taisuke's name back in response, moving until they both reached their climaxes.
Brushing his hand through Taisuke's bangs, Hiromitsu waited until the other was asleep to whisper those three words into Taisuke's ear.
Finishing putting his skates on, Hiromitsu looked up, trying to see if the rest of his members were ready for practice. His eyes landed on Taisuke, who was fooling around with Senga and Tamamori, and he smiled softly. It looked like it was going to take a while for rehearsal to start for them then.
"Yo, Hiro." Hiromitsu turned his head and blinked when he found Totsuka sitting right beside him, hand casually placed on his shoulder. When did the other get here? "So, anything interesting happened lately?" The way the other was looking at him made Hiromitsu think the question wasn't as simple as it sounded.
Hiromitsu wondered if Totsuka noticed something. After all, he was pretty sure the other had already guessed his feelings for Taisuke without him admitting to anything. Rules were rules though, however, so he shook his head, "Not really? Why? Anything interesting happened to you then?"
Totsuka raised an eyebrow, as if he didn't believe what Hiromitsu had said. He frowned for a moment and opened his mouth to speak when his group members called him over. Running a hand through his hair, Totsuka said, "I'll talk to you later." With that, he ran back to his group.
Hiromitsu shook his head and turned his attention back to his own group. It seemed like most of them were ready. Getting up, he skated towards where they were gathering and started to plan what they were going to do for rehearsal. At these moments, Hiromitsu acted normally, as did Taisuke and Wataru.
Everything was going well, until the younger Juniors started to practice as well. It seemed like there were quite a few young fresh Juniors were around and while Taisuke were practicing a new routine, skating backwards towards each other, one of them stumbled right on to their path.
When Hiromitsu realized what had happened, he was sitting on the floor, his butt aching from the fall. He immediately turned to look at Taisuke, but Wataru was already hovering over him, and kept on asking how he was doing and if he was okay, if he needed anything.
Mumbling how he was fine to Senga and Goseki, Taisuke looked up and saw how Wataru was worried about Hiromitsu. It was times like this that people who show their real feelings, right? Taisuke's heart clenched, and in his head, he cried out for Wataru to look at him.
Taisuke pressed a hand against his chest and couldn't look over at Wataru and Hiromitsu anymore. No matter how long this game continued, he was never going to gain a position like Hiromitsu in Wataru's right? Muttering something about the washroom, Taisuke got up quickly and skated out of the room.
It was a few seconds after he left that Wataru turned to look for Taisuke, only to find him gone.
Taisuke didn't choose alcohol this time. For some reason, he was thinking enough to know that drinking alcohol alone was dangerous for him as an idol and bad for his body as well. It was why instead of drowning himself in alcohol right now, he was drowning himself in the blasting music on the dance floor.
Squished between moving bodies in the crowd, Taisuke tried to forget about Wataru worrying over Hiromitsu only, not looking at him even once, even though the same thing happened him. He wasn't sure for how long he was dancing, letting other people press up against him and grind back.
"Fujigaya, what the hell are you doing?" Finding himself spun around and starting into familiar eyes looking at him quite angrily, Taisuke smiled and wrapped his arms around that person's neck. Stepping closer, he tilted his head innocently and leaned in close enough so the other could hear him.
"Want to take me home, Takizawa-kun?"
Author's Note: As I'm sure all of you have managed to guess from previous parts, this part is focused on HiroSuke. Taisuke really is the most emo of the three after all, lol. XD; Hiro is almost bitter sweet because of the way he cares about Taisuke, and would do anything to make Taisuke happy.
Where is this heading towards? Guess. X3 (And like, it's the first part that people other than OT3 actually spoke! ...I think. 8D; )
Mh...I don't have much to say anyways.
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