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My computer is completely dead so until my "new" one arrives that I won off ebay (couldn't really afford but I need a computer for school) I won't be online much. I am at the library right now. I just got everything reinstalled and everything!! I lost everything all over again... bah on that! well, that's computers for you. Nothing lasts forever.. ( Read more... )

I'm getting Joseph back on the 13th of February! Woohoo! Let's celebrate!

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Ok, here is the reason why I have worn only black except on visits with my son for over three weeks now. Not because I want to be cool, goth, retro, different, or anything like that. Not because I am in love with death, depressed, or off my rocker. Not because I am in love with black... I mentally went into mourning a while back and like people who ( Read more... )

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Ok, I finished my layouts... tell me what you think :) check out some of the links on the sides while you are at it .. enjoy!

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Pretty cool I think lol..

just for fun of course...


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I saw Joseph at the children's museum last Sunday and wanted to share some pics of our day... of the pics where I held him though he seemed so confused... I don't understand those. I think he has been gone far too long in my opinion .. either that or he just wanted to play more than be with me. But here they are.


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ok i really need to stop lol... here is some more. comment and credit sh8ttered if you take.

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