Thanx to some friends and special loved ones in my life, things are startin to go a bit better. I think that tanning has helped a hella lot cuz it makes me look brighter, so therefore I feel brighter. JoJo thank you for bein there for me. Specially since Aunt Ann who is like my second mom has been in the hospital and now the psyche ward. I'm ( Read more... )

Damn, I was just goin through summer pictures, and I am definitely a summer/warm weather kind of person. During the winter, I break out, turn pale, get short hair, and be all ugly. Definitely having a low self esteem moment. Can ya tell? Yeah. That is what these past few days have been about. People at Robots are all pissed at me... Besides ( Read more... )

I can never find another lover ( Read more... )

All of my life I have been looking for something. Because of course, what is life without a purpose/ something to look forward to? I believe that I have found that. The drama of my life has come to a stand still for the time being, and whether or not it starts acting up again or not, I don't care, because I am happy with me. Thats it. I am the ( Read more... )

Sometimes one night can change your life. Make you change your attitude about something for hte better or the worse. Tonight mine has been changed for the better. I am a very lucky person. I have come to this realization after a long time of trying to look at only the bad in my life. It isn't so bad I guess. I mean my family isn't that great, ( Read more... )

stuff is going okay yay
what happened

does n e one really care? i don't think so. i don't think they understand either. after hanging out with alan and kevin and ronnie and dave i freaked myself out. does n e one really even like me? or do they just hang out with me out of sympathy because they don't want me to feel bad? sometimes i just don't know.

does n e one really care? i don't think so. i don't think they understand either. after hanging out with alan and kevin and ronnie and dave i freaked myself out. does n e one really even like me? or do they just hang out with me out of sympathy because they don't want me to feel bad? sometimes i just don't know.

I found this poem tonight and it fits me so perfectly its almost as if i wrote it. its my exact thoughts. not that anyone really cares ( Read more... )

life sux my mom is bitch i want to die i dont want to be here anymore every chance i get she ruins my dads an asshole he doesnt care how i feel my moms husband wont talk to me my friends dont realize how much i hurt no one does i smile falsly day after day without ever letting anyone know how much pain i am in because they wouldnt understand anyway ( Read more... )