Last night went alright. This morning even went alright. But holy shit, way to flip out because I assumed we would hang out for the rest of the day. Some things are just not meant to be. I think if I repeat this over and over in my head at least 8927328974923749023420 times a day for the next 10 years, I might start believing it. Or better yet, I ( Read more... )

don't pretend that its okay ( Read more... )

I am just a miserable bitch. I have recently, as of two seconds ago, realized that I am being mean to other people in order to make me feel good about myself. And the more I get thinking about it, its not right at all. As if I would go so low. Why don't I feel like I matter to anyone. The one person I need to be needed by the most has left my side ( Read more... )

So again... like always, I will vent ( Read more... )

If I could only express how much I hate fighting, or even how much I am tired of this.

I find myself wanting what I cant have.. And thinking how things would be if they were different..
Thats probably not right..but I really dont care anymore.

So the thing on my forehead, its not cancer...
Its actually pretty common. Its just ugly as hell. I am going to get it removed. Some kind of photo-radiology.
Had lunch with my mommy today, we ate at The Full Court Deli. Mmmmm, it was so good. I had a turkey club.

Work tonight.. or today.. 3-9.
And I am going to go take a nap before I go in.

i've made one to many mistakes, appearently.
And I hate, more than anything, that this has come down to this.
And yet, i still dont know who to blame.. you say me, I say you.

Looks like we're screwed.

"shes says, i dont love you like i loved you before.... i dont love you, i dont love you anymore."

Left my car at work last night because I was to scared to drive in the blizzard. I am still kind of nervous to drive today but it doesnt look that bad out, i would just really hate to get into an accidenti would be scared shitless ( Read more... )

Woke up around 9, called Ashley and made plans to hang out with her for the day. I got up there around 11:30 and just got home. I had a good time. It was really nice to finally see her. We had lots to talk about. I really miss her, a lot. We were really close for a while there. Hopefully her and I can start hanging out more often. Although its ( Read more... )

On Sunday I went to Aprils and hung out there for the day. I didnt feel good at all. We brought the kids to Jokers, it was a blast. Well, for them.. lol. Called into work, which I know is really bad, but I didnt feel good, and I have been working like crazy lately so I am sure no one cared ( Read more... )