I am feeling quite frustrated because everything I know to be true is true and everyone else is either in denial or a fucking idiot.

People do treat you differently based on how you look.

I wouldn't be ignored so much if I was skinnier and prettier. At least school is starting soon.

I was going to post a real entry but I'm suddenly feeling too tired to do anything of that nature. I can do this... :)

I'm not sure what it is about being alone that I can't handle. But at the same time, I don't want to ask anyone to be with me. I feel sick. I want to die already.

On the brighter side... I guess my cat is coming home soon.

I know suicide hurts others and affects many people around the victim. But how can one sit in their own self-hate and misery day after day. It becomes too much to take. They say suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. It seems to me that suicide is a final solution for a relentless and increasingly painful problem. I want to die ( Read more... )

Miss you too. I love dialectical behavioral therapy. Things are moving forward.


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Starting fresh. 90 or bust! :)

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2 Cups of Mountain Dew (280)
Slice of pizza (200)
A few french fries w/ ketchup (200)
A hot dog with ketchup, mustard, bacon (360?)
Iced tea (125)
Chips (200)
Fiber One (210)

~1.5k or less today. Damn! :( lolperiods.

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I hate that I'm still so in love with my ex. My life is interesting as fuck lately but I don't even know how to write about it. Boring shit first, juicy shit later ( Read more... )