Of all my friends only Ross and Cara actually made an effort to see me on my birthday. Makes me seriously reevaluate me friendships with a lot of people. I don't ask for much, so when I ask for ONE day (2 months in advance) to do something on my birthday, I would expect them to at least try. I am so let down, and it sucks. I can't believe some ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night of an impending zombie infestation. As silly as that sounds, it was pretty intense. To quote Inception, "Dreams, they feel real while we're in them right? It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange." But I will write about it with as much detail as I can remember. I think this seemed like the ( Read more... )

So no one has confirmed they are going to my birthday event to see jackass 3d. I thought this would happen. I gave everyone almost 2 months to plan ahead. I can't rely on anyone anymore. I love my friends, but I just don't understand why they can't do this for me. I never ask my friends for anything ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm falling again. Butterflies are still there. Heart still beats out of my chest. If only things were different...

You keep telling yourself what you know, but what do you believe? What do you feel?

Guilt.
I feel guilt. No matter what I do, no matter how hopeless I am, no matter how confused, that guilt is always there reminding me the truth.

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She had locked ( Read more... )

Good beach day with Kira. Just as I suspected, even though we have not hung out alone for the past couple months, there was no awkwardness. Love hanging out with her. Just wish it could have been for longer than just a couple hours ( Read more... )

Have you ever had a dream that you thought would never come true?
How can you be so sure?
How can I be so sure anymore?
The lines are blurring.

Am I dreaming?

Jon's wedding was kind of awkward. You could definitely see the budget behind it all. Weirdly enough I think that's the happiest I've ever seen Jon. He had a grin from ear to ear the entire day/night. I'm so glad Cara went with me. She got along with everyone, and she never once complained about anything. I didn't feel like I had to entertain her ( Read more... )

Another day.
Just believe.
Another day.
Just breathe.

So I'm reading about Benjamin Franklin and it makes me realize how ahead of his time he was. On the subject of reanimating a corpse ( Read more... )