our bodies get bigger (our hearts get torn up) - TVD - Jeremy/Elena

[scorpiod1]

Title: our bodies get bigger (our hearts get torn up)
Fandom: The Vampire Diaries
Pairing: Jeremy/Elena (references to past canon pairings)
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own nothing and am making no money off this.
Word Count: ~5,100
Warnings: underage sex, drug use, mention of attempted suicide.
Spoilers: Spoilers for the whole series, up to 3x10.

Comments

[lady_dragoncrow]

Daring pairing. I like it, have suggested it a few times in tvd_kink.
Very good take on this pairing. I think with all that happening in the last three years it's understandable for them both to do this, to be irrational. The hate/love relationship they have is very believable. He can't help but hate her a little for all that happened, but loves her even more, since she's his sister and the last of his family alive.
The part about the compulsion was good, exactly how I imagine him to think after going away.

[scorpiod1]

Thank you so much, I'm glad the pairing made sense for you; it can be tricky trying to establish Jeremy/Elena and make it believable so I'm happy it worked! I think both of them would hate each other a little, simply because there's just so much baggage between them and they're both very messed up kids, but like you said, she's also all he has. I'm glad you liked the compulsion aspect; I thought it'd be interesting if Jeremy/Elena having sex factored into Elena's decision to send him away. Thank you for reading, I'm really pleased you enjoyed it :)

[brokenbell]

Wow, you did a wonderful job writing this. The way you paint Jeremy's emotional state is heart-wrenching. No wonder he grasps his sister in whatever way he can. This adds such a dark and compelling twist on their relationship, and you weave it into canon seamlessly. I especially like the way you write Jeremy's thoughts while he is under compulsion at the end. Also, Jeremy telling Elena he blames her for the death of their parents in the days following the accident is part of my personal head-canon and is how I explain a lot of the behavior of both characters. I love that you included it as a major part of their dynamic.

[scorpiod1]

Oh thank you so much! :#) I'm so pleased it worked believably for you and that I got across just how screwed up Jeremy's head must be (and yeah, I wanted to add a darker layer to their relationship xD so I'm glad that worked :D). I have a lot of feelings on that boy <3

AND YES, MY HEADCANON TOO. It's such a horrible thing to say, but I think he WOULD, you know? Because he's angry and fifteen and his parents just died and he was probably in volatile headspace during that time and I can't imagine him holding back.

[eternal_moonie]

Absolutely LOVE it!!!

Well done!!

[scorpiod1]

Thank you so much! I'm happy you enjoyed it :)

[cassiehayes]

OH GOD, THIS IS JUST... I AM SPEECHLESS TBH

Like. I want to quote favourite parts at you but I literally do not even know where or how to begin, and I feel like I would never stop, 'cause this is all so beautiful. UGH. I love the idea that Jeremy gets fucked up just by existing now, and the line about how they were never this with their parents, their parents never knew them as screwed up children with blood on their hands, ugh, and the give-and-take and love-and-hate of it all, hating her like you can only hate family but he doesn't even know if that's normal or not anymore, and having the urge to just TELL someone for the reaction, and everything's funny once you fucked your sister, and all the parts about dead girlfriends, but then Bonnie was the opposite, Bonnie was alive but he's closer to dead, and just the whole thing of them being so fucked up and Elena's better at faking normalcy, and they have no one left, what even matters any more, and JEREMY BLAMING HER MAYBE A LITTLE BIT FOR THEIR PARENTS' DEATHS, AND ALL THE FIGHTING

[scorpiod1]

WAY TO MAKE ME ALL THE FEELS FOR THESE TWO WHEN I DIDN'T HAVE THAT MANY BEFORE

THAT IS THE BEST COMPLIMENT YOU COULD PAY ME, TBH dfjaks;dfa thank you so much, I AM GLAD YOU HAVE JEREMY/ELENA FEELINGS NOW. That's really all I wanted to do, because I love Gilberts a lot but there's not really a lot of focus on Jeremy & Elena's relationship in canon or fandom, which is odd because it has a lot of my favorite things in fictional siblings (two orphaned kids who only have each other left as far as family goes, getting lost in the woods) and I just wanted to dive into how traumtaized and messed up they must be (especially Jeremy, who I love because he's such a messed up kid and the show only sometimes acknowledges that) and roll around in it.

BASICALLY, I AM REALLY SUPER GLAD YOU LIKED THIS, THANK YOU SO MUCH :D <3 <3 <3

[cassiehayes]

Ahhhhhh see that is the thing too, these two actually do embody SO MANY of my favourite sibling things too or even just favourite relationship things, ~they only have each other, exactly, etc etc, but I guess I never really conceptualized them in a way that would WORK until I read this, if that makes sense? So yeeeeeees, ALL MY JEREMY/ELENA FEELINGS ARE THANKS TO YOUU <33

[hollydoodle19]

ugh this is so perfect <3 i love the love/hate/need relationship that they have both in the show and in your fic and you made them crossing into this territory so believable, honestly these fucked up kids cling to each other in a way that isn't normal and i just adore what you've done with them, especially jeremys post compulsion thoughts. awesome job!

[scorpiod1]

Eeeek, thank you so much! I'm so happy this was believable, I really love these two kids a lot and wanted to make how they cling to each other seem plausible to the reader, I'm so glad it worked! Thank you for reading and commenting :D