Everything Starts Where It Ends (Chapter 17)
I waited for Siwon in front of my house. But he never showed. It was again, one of those times when he didn't go to school because he was either to weak or he was on heavy medication. I started to walk towards the school alone.
Just then,I received a call from Siwon's mother. She told me that Siwon had been hospitalised the night before. I immediately changed my route and headed for the hospital instead.
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I walked towards his ward, only to find his mother in front of , sobbing uncontrollably. I walked over to her and offered her a hug.
"He..It seems to have gotten worst! The doctors said that if he doesn't get a donor in two weeks, it'll be over. He can't accept anymore transplants after that. He'll be..wahhhh my precious son,"
I sighed, not knowing what to say. Two weeks? He spent half of his life unsuccessfully looking for a donor and now they tell me he has only two weeks left to look for them? You have got to be kidding me. Siwon's mother excused herself to make a phone call.
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"Hi Hyukjae..."
I gave him a small wave and walked over to the bed. He tried sitting up buy ended up falling back onto the bed. I could cry by just looking at him. Looking at how he had tubes in his nose, and on his hands. Looking at how hard he was trying to smile despite of all the pain. Looking at how calm he was, opposite to what I was feeling.
I took a seat beside him and placed my hand over his.
"Go to the dance."
I looked up at Siwon, and shrugged. I wasn't in the mood for anything,much less the dance two days away.
"Is that an invitation?"
"No it's an order,"
I smiled, looking at the figure sitting beside me. If I didn't know better, I'd have believed that SIwon was the luckiest person on Earth. He looked so happy, so contented with his life and he was always smiling and saying positive things.
25 Days
25 days since I found out he had leukemia. Which meant that he had barely another 65 days to go. The thought of Siwon leaving me made me feel sick. Just when I was finally rebuilding my life, someone who means a lot to me has to be taken away from me. It was really unfair. Sometimes I wonder if the God that Siwon always praised was actually nice. Well he wasn't to me.
"I don't wanna go, not if you aren't going"
"But that's why you should go! I want to go too actually but since I can't, all the more you should go. Take lots of pictures for me. Tell me if it's fun okay? Go okay Hyukjae?"
I just looked away and let his question hang in mid-air
"Promise me you will go okay Hyukjae..."
I hated it when he used that tone on me. It was not asking, it was convincing. And he was almost successful in doing so.
"Hyukjae.."
I sighed and finally gave in to him. Siwon smiled at me, before drifting to sleep. He must be really tired, I thought as I stood up and carefully closed the door once I was outside the ward.
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Kyuhyun's POV
Today was one of the days that I had looked forward to all year. Well who wouldn't ? It was dance night! Party, Sungmin, Dance, Sungmin, Awesome music, Sungmin... I smiled to myself as I rang the doorbell to Sungmin's house.
I was greeted by Sungmin's older brother, Sungjin who just smirked at me before telling me that Sungmin was still in his room, getting ready. I walked up the staircase towards his room. Of course I knew where his room was. I've been here practically a million times. We were already late by ten minutes, but I knew we'd probably arrive later since Sungmin has a thing for being fashionably late.Just as I was going to open the door to surprise him, I heard something.
"I want you to teach him a lesson today. Boy that kid really doesn't know how to quit. Who? Just look for the one with the red hair. Huh? I don't care, do whatever you want with him. Beat him up, rape him, whatever. As long as he got the warning..Yes to.."
My jaw dropped. I slammed open the door, to find Sungmin talking on the phone. When he realised I was there, he wore the same expression I was wearing. I walked over to him and grabbed the phone out of his hands.I looked at the caller ID.
"You dare touch Hyukjae and I'll make sure the principal hears about this, Minho" I screamed into the phone and then slammed it to the nearest wall. The said object broke into a million pieces.
"WHAT THE FUCK KYUHYUN! What's wrong with you?" He ran over to his phone, trying to save whatever was left of it.
"What's wrong with YOU? Are you crazy Sungmin? Do you realise how much trouble you would get into if anyone finds out what you're planning? He was your best friend, for goodness sake!"
Sungmin just rolled his eyes and said coldly,
"Why do you care so much about him, Kyuhyun? What, do you love him now? He's really pathetic now, hanging out with that Siwon just because he has no friends. Do you want to be like him? Then you can go to him. You're nothing but a waste of my time, Kyuhyun,"
I looked into his eyes. They didn't reflect anything about the Sungmin I once knew. It wasn't the Sungmin who'd get mad at me if I told him that bunnies were fat or that pink was gay. It wasn't the Sungmin who had walked beside me all this time. It wasn't the Sungmin I had fallen in love with. No, I couldn't even recognise the Sungmin right in front of me.
"I guess I will,Sungmin. I'm sorry for being 'a waste of time'," I finally said and walked over to him, placing the ring we had bought for our two year anniversary in his hands. I turned towards the door.
"No no wait Kyu. No Kyu you CANNOT leave me here. How are we going to win the best couple if you leave me here? COME BACK KYU,"
I turned to him,
"We? Oh no Sungmin. There's no 'we' anymore," I said before walking out of his room, and out of his life.
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Eunhyuk's POV
Dancing, I love dancing. Well maybe not tonight. Tonight would be an exception,I thought as I stood alone in the corner and admired everyone else having the time of their lives. It was going to be a long night, but a promise is a promise. I sighed and took a lot of random pictures, to show Siwon. Occasionally, I'd take a picture of myself (fake) smiling, just to make Siwon happy.
The night finally was almost done. They were announcing the best couple award or something as shitty as that, so I escaped towards the toilet.
Just as I left the cubicle, I found out that I had company in the toilet.
Donghae ...
" You're so easy , you know that? " He started, through the toilet mirror.
Confusion, anger and curiosity took over me all at once. Feeling rather overwhelmed, I pretended not to hear anything and continued to wash my hands quickly, wanting to just leave that place and not look at his smug expression anymore.
I dried my hands and walked towards the exit, when I feel something tugging at my wrist. He was not done with me yet. I was so sick of this. It was the same everytime. Whatever it is this time, I don't think it would be any better.
As I began to pull my hands away from him, the grip got tighter and he began " Hyuk, it was me. I know you've been pretending not to realise that it was me. I told them..."
Even ass the familiar feeling of betrayal start to take over me, I managed a soft whisper ,
"whatever, it's over.. i don't care anymore"
He let out a small laugh, the laugh that makes you feel like that kid was being laughed at for wetting his pants. That laugh that makes you feel like you're the biggest idiot on earth. that laugh that i used to love so much.
"You're so stupid. Three years, wasn't that long enough for you to realise that I was just using you? I never needed you, but since everyone else is just as or more boring than you were, I figured you could be of some use..By the way, it was also me who made the coach suspend you from soccer for two months. I thought that you would finally break since the soccer team is practically your life,but no . All you did was silently accept the punishment for something you did not do..I was so disgusted by then so of course, i had to take things into my own hands...YES IT WAS ME..YOU PATHETIC COW-w-w..."
He didn't get to finish his sentence as i slammed him against the nearest wall,my hands pinning his shoulder against the wall. I was losing it, all the emotions that i've been supressing for months were now in a mess. I couldn't think. The pounding in my head got louder as i was now staring right into his eyes. I saw a hint of fear for a split second, before he rolled his eyes. That ticked me off, I couldn't stand people who rolled their eyes, so i did that one thing that i knew could piss him off. That one thing i've been wanting to do since forever. That one thing i knew could destroy any sort of friendship we had left (if we had any).
I crashed my lips onto his.
It wasn't that romantic first kiss you would expect. It wasn't sweet. It was far from sweet. His eyes widened before he tried to struggle. But little did he realise that he was too weak for me. For the real me. The me i never showed anyone. I bit the bottom of his lips, when he refused to give my tongue access to his mouth. When he gasped, I forced my tongue in, pushing him further onto the wall. After realising that he was not going to be able to escape, he relaxed into the kiss as he wrapped his hands around my neck, pulling me down further.
I don't know how we got to grinding against the sink, with my hands in his hair and his on my chest while our tongue were still fighting for dominance
I let his tongue continue to explore the insides of my mouth but when i felt him starting to unbutton my shirt, i pushed him , maybe a bit too hard, away from me.
"I love you Hyukkie..' I mentally laugh, remembering that name he used to call me.
I smirked. I don't know what took over me at that point of time. I just smirked.
The look in his eyes, maybe confusion or was it hurt ?
"I didn't know YOU were that easy Hae... " I laughed, that sadistic laugh which i didn't even know i could
As I watch tears form in his eyes, I gave him one last look and walked towards the exit once again, not once turning back.
As soon as i reached a place quiet enough, I broke down and started crying .
I'm sorry Hae...I love you
~~
I woke up when I felt someone sprinkling cold water in my face. I looked up. Kyuhyun.
"Where's..where's Donghae?"
"They brought him to the hospital I guess. I don't know, there were ambulance and all. Do you know what happened?"
I half-nodded my head, as I stood up quickly and ran out of school.
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"Dr Lee?" I gasped as I ran into a woman along the corridor of the emergency ward.
"WHERE'S DONGHAE?" I asked her as I followed her towards one of the operating room.
"Stay outside Hyukjae, I can't tell you anything yet, but he lost a lot of blood and it's hard to find an immediate donor since he's an A and I'm a B,"
With that, she disappeared behind one of the doors.
Just then,I received a call from Siwon's mother. She told me that Siwon had been hospitalised the night before. I immediately changed my route and headed for the hospital instead.
~~
I walked towards his ward, only to find his mother in front of , sobbing uncontrollably. I walked over to her and offered her a hug.
"He..It seems to have gotten worst! The doctors said that if he doesn't get a donor in two weeks, it'll be over. He can't accept anymore transplants after that. He'll be..wahhhh my precious son,"
I sighed, not knowing what to say. Two weeks? He spent half of his life unsuccessfully looking for a donor and now they tell me he has only two weeks left to look for them? You have got to be kidding me. Siwon's mother excused herself to make a phone call.
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"Hi Hyukjae..."
I gave him a small wave and walked over to the bed. He tried sitting up buy ended up falling back onto the bed. I could cry by just looking at him. Looking at how he had tubes in his nose, and on his hands. Looking at how hard he was trying to smile despite of all the pain. Looking at how calm he was, opposite to what I was feeling.
I took a seat beside him and placed my hand over his.
"Go to the dance."
I looked up at Siwon, and shrugged. I wasn't in the mood for anything,much less the dance two days away.
"Is that an invitation?"
"No it's an order,"
I smiled, looking at the figure sitting beside me. If I didn't know better, I'd have believed that SIwon was the luckiest person on Earth. He looked so happy, so contented with his life and he was always smiling and saying positive things.
25 Days
25 days since I found out he had leukemia. Which meant that he had barely another 65 days to go. The thought of Siwon leaving me made me feel sick. Just when I was finally rebuilding my life, someone who means a lot to me has to be taken away from me. It was really unfair. Sometimes I wonder if the God that Siwon always praised was actually nice. Well he wasn't to me.
"I don't wanna go, not if you aren't going"
"But that's why you should go! I want to go too actually but since I can't, all the more you should go. Take lots of pictures for me. Tell me if it's fun okay? Go okay Hyukjae?"
I just looked away and let his question hang in mid-air
"Promise me you will go okay Hyukjae..."
I hated it when he used that tone on me. It was not asking, it was convincing. And he was almost successful in doing so.
"Hyukjae.."
I sighed and finally gave in to him. Siwon smiled at me, before drifting to sleep. He must be really tired, I thought as I stood up and carefully closed the door once I was outside the ward.
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Kyuhyun's POV
Today was one of the days that I had looked forward to all year. Well who wouldn't ? It was dance night! Party, Sungmin, Dance, Sungmin, Awesome music, Sungmin... I smiled to myself as I rang the doorbell to Sungmin's house.
I was greeted by Sungmin's older brother, Sungjin who just smirked at me before telling me that Sungmin was still in his room, getting ready. I walked up the staircase towards his room. Of course I knew where his room was. I've been here practically a million times. We were already late by ten minutes, but I knew we'd probably arrive later since Sungmin has a thing for being fashionably late.Just as I was going to open the door to surprise him, I heard something.
"I want you to teach him a lesson today. Boy that kid really doesn't know how to quit. Who? Just look for the one with the red hair. Huh? I don't care, do whatever you want with him. Beat him up, rape him, whatever. As long as he got the warning..Yes to.."
My jaw dropped. I slammed open the door, to find Sungmin talking on the phone. When he realised I was there, he wore the same expression I was wearing. I walked over to him and grabbed the phone out of his hands.I looked at the caller ID.
"You dare touch Hyukjae and I'll make sure the principal hears about this, Minho" I screamed into the phone and then slammed it to the nearest wall. The said object broke into a million pieces.
"WHAT THE FUCK KYUHYUN! What's wrong with you?" He ran over to his phone, trying to save whatever was left of it.
"What's wrong with YOU? Are you crazy Sungmin? Do you realise how much trouble you would get into if anyone finds out what you're planning? He was your best friend, for goodness sake!"
Sungmin just rolled his eyes and said coldly,
"Why do you care so much about him, Kyuhyun? What, do you love him now? He's really pathetic now, hanging out with that Siwon just because he has no friends. Do you want to be like him? Then you can go to him. You're nothing but a waste of my time, Kyuhyun,"
I looked into his eyes. They didn't reflect anything about the Sungmin I once knew. It wasn't the Sungmin who'd get mad at me if I told him that bunnies were fat or that pink was gay. It wasn't the Sungmin who had walked beside me all this time. It wasn't the Sungmin I had fallen in love with. No, I couldn't even recognise the Sungmin right in front of me.
"I guess I will,Sungmin. I'm sorry for being 'a waste of time'," I finally said and walked over to him, placing the ring we had bought for our two year anniversary in his hands. I turned towards the door.
"No no wait Kyu. No Kyu you CANNOT leave me here. How are we going to win the best couple if you leave me here? COME BACK KYU,"
I turned to him,
"We? Oh no Sungmin. There's no 'we' anymore," I said before walking out of his room, and out of his life.
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Eunhyuk's POV
Dancing, I love dancing. Well maybe not tonight. Tonight would be an exception,I thought as I stood alone in the corner and admired everyone else having the time of their lives. It was going to be a long night, but a promise is a promise. I sighed and took a lot of random pictures, to show Siwon. Occasionally, I'd take a picture of myself (fake) smiling, just to make Siwon happy.
The night finally was almost done. They were announcing the best couple award or something as shitty as that, so I escaped towards the toilet.
Just as I left the cubicle, I found out that I had company in the toilet.
Donghae ...
" You're so easy , you know that? " He started, through the toilet mirror.
Confusion, anger and curiosity took over me all at once. Feeling rather overwhelmed, I pretended not to hear anything and continued to wash my hands quickly, wanting to just leave that place and not look at his smug expression anymore.
I dried my hands and walked towards the exit, when I feel something tugging at my wrist. He was not done with me yet. I was so sick of this. It was the same everytime. Whatever it is this time, I don't think it would be any better.
As I began to pull my hands away from him, the grip got tighter and he began " Hyuk, it was me. I know you've been pretending not to realise that it was me. I told them..."
Even ass the familiar feeling of betrayal start to take over me, I managed a soft whisper ,
"whatever, it's over.. i don't care anymore"
He let out a small laugh, the laugh that makes you feel like that kid was being laughed at for wetting his pants. That laugh that makes you feel like you're the biggest idiot on earth. that laugh that i used to love so much.
"You're so stupid. Three years, wasn't that long enough for you to realise that I was just using you? I never needed you, but since everyone else is just as or more boring than you were, I figured you could be of some use..By the way, it was also me who made the coach suspend you from soccer for two months. I thought that you would finally break since the soccer team is practically your life,but no . All you did was silently accept the punishment for something you did not do..I was so disgusted by then so of course, i had to take things into my own hands...YES IT WAS ME..YOU PATHETIC COW-w-w..."
He didn't get to finish his sentence as i slammed him against the nearest wall,my hands pinning his shoulder against the wall. I was losing it, all the emotions that i've been supressing for months were now in a mess. I couldn't think. The pounding in my head got louder as i was now staring right into his eyes. I saw a hint of fear for a split second, before he rolled his eyes. That ticked me off, I couldn't stand people who rolled their eyes, so i did that one thing that i knew could piss him off. That one thing i've been wanting to do since forever. That one thing i knew could destroy any sort of friendship we had left (if we had any).
I crashed my lips onto his.
It wasn't that romantic first kiss you would expect. It wasn't sweet. It was far from sweet. His eyes widened before he tried to struggle. But little did he realise that he was too weak for me. For the real me. The me i never showed anyone. I bit the bottom of his lips, when he refused to give my tongue access to his mouth. When he gasped, I forced my tongue in, pushing him further onto the wall. After realising that he was not going to be able to escape, he relaxed into the kiss as he wrapped his hands around my neck, pulling me down further.
I don't know how we got to grinding against the sink, with my hands in his hair and his on my chest while our tongue were still fighting for dominance
I let his tongue continue to explore the insides of my mouth but when i felt him starting to unbutton my shirt, i pushed him , maybe a bit too hard, away from me.
"I love you Hyukkie..' I mentally laugh, remembering that name he used to call me.
I smirked. I don't know what took over me at that point of time. I just smirked.
The look in his eyes, maybe confusion or was it hurt ?
"I didn't know YOU were that easy Hae... " I laughed, that sadistic laugh which i didn't even know i could
As I watch tears form in his eyes, I gave him one last look and walked towards the exit once again, not once turning back.
As soon as i reached a place quiet enough, I broke down and started crying .
I'm sorry Hae...I love you
~~
I woke up when I felt someone sprinkling cold water in my face. I looked up. Kyuhyun.
"Where's..where's Donghae?"
"They brought him to the hospital I guess. I don't know, there were ambulance and all. Do you know what happened?"
I half-nodded my head, as I stood up quickly and ran out of school.
~~
"Dr Lee?" I gasped as I ran into a woman along the corridor of the emergency ward.
"WHERE'S DONGHAE?" I asked her as I followed her towards one of the operating room.
"Stay outside Hyukjae, I can't tell you anything yet, but he lost a lot of blood and it's hard to find an immediate donor since he's an A and I'm a B,"
With that, she disappeared behind one of the doors.