I am ( Read more... )

I've started talking to my best friend and former boyfriend again. I shouldn't, I know I shouldn't not while hes sorting through things but I can't not! I get to be me with him, I don't have to worry about talking in a short hand that only we know, or swearing too much or having to explain away who or what i am, having to justify my decisions, or ( Read more... )

Iam back, oh yes back in the national! I am back at the theatre, and once again it has supressed my need for anything else and surprassed everything else. The need for food, sleep, my once rampant libido, my need for love even. I think If could give everything else and try my best to get into acting, making people and singing and dancing, I would ( Read more... )

I'm 24 ( Read more... )

I've been okay for ages and then bam it hits me properly hits me! 8 years of routines, in jokes, made up language for us two, nicknames and a shared world gone! A turn of phrase, I can no longer use, no longer being called Mipanda or Monkey, or little one. Its all gone and I keep dreaming that he is home and back with me and I can't bear this! My ( Read more... )

Right that is it, its been like two months since I last snogged someone and I am like a bloody teenager boy, I very, very nearly kissed my best friend today. I have kissed and even shagged him maybe like 10 times, but we aren't like that anymore. I don't want a fling, I want something real, something that means something so why oh why am I drooling ( Read more... )

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You held my love and my our future in your hands and you threw it away like it meant nothing at all. A future and dreams destroyed and ripped away. 8 years ( Read more... )

I don't want to go out and be one of those people who shags around and who wants to go out and get drunk. I don't hate being single, but I know that I will never be a casual relationship person or a casual sex person. I don't want to play games and play hard to get, I'm an utter romantic I believe in love, proper love. I don't miss the beginning, ( Read more... )

I don't want to go out and get drunk AND shag around ( Read more... )