I will gaze
So I've come to a conclusion: I'm doing fandom wrong.
Heh. That sounds dirty.
But, no. Let me explain - I don't get overly defensive about people or characters. I don't have OTPs or ship specific couples exclusively. I don't get super-invested in shows to the point that I'm bereft if they leave me. I don't get offended by business practices of companies, even if they're kind of hinky about how they go about it, because they are a business and I get that. I don't think that someone posting a story similar to one I'm writing is a direct attack at me. I don't think I have the exclusive rights to the ideas I want to write about. I don't think I'm super-awesomely-fantastic. I think I'm kind of boring, and I'm amazed that so many people give a shit about what I say either personally or [more realistically] fictionally. I think is superfantasticallyawesome that you do, but sometimes I'm all "Really? Because I'm boring and lots of what I write kind of sucks".
And so I've realized with all the kerfluffles and such that I'm obviously just doing this wrong. Because this is the fun stuff in my life that doesn't involve working a lot and dealing with bitchy patients and even bitchier doctors/nurse practitioners. This is the part that doesn't involve being a MOM all the time and a wife ALL the time and the fucked up economy and the fact that my super-awesome husband can't find a job in his field because half the people out of work in this area are in his field. This is the part that has my friends in it and they're here for me to hang with and be silly with and squee with and feel woe with. This is the part of my life that's always good, even when it's bad because you guys ARE super-awesomely-fantastic to me.
People come and people go, and that's how life is. I had someone who I considered a good friend that I met on LJ who I haven't seen/heard from for years now, and I think about her often and wonder what she's up to, but you let them go, because otherwise you go crazy. What if is great for stories. What if can suck in real life. So, this is how I do fandom - because for me, it's about the wonderful people that I meet through it, a conduit to awesome if you will - and I think maybe that's wrong. But it's what you get from me.
Heh. That sounds dirty.
But, no. Let me explain - I don't get overly defensive about people or characters. I don't have OTPs or ship specific couples exclusively. I don't get super-invested in shows to the point that I'm bereft if they leave me. I don't get offended by business practices of companies, even if they're kind of hinky about how they go about it, because they are a business and I get that. I don't think that someone posting a story similar to one I'm writing is a direct attack at me. I don't think I have the exclusive rights to the ideas I want to write about. I don't think I'm super-awesomely-fantastic. I think I'm kind of boring, and I'm amazed that so many people give a shit about what I say either personally or [more realistically] fictionally. I think is superfantasticallyawesome that you do, but sometimes I'm all "Really? Because I'm boring and lots of what I write kind of sucks".
And so I've realized with all the kerfluffles and such that I'm obviously just doing this wrong. Because this is the fun stuff in my life that doesn't involve working a lot and dealing with bitchy patients and even bitchier doctors/nurse practitioners. This is the part that doesn't involve being a MOM all the time and a wife ALL the time and the fucked up economy and the fact that my super-awesome husband can't find a job in his field because half the people out of work in this area are in his field. This is the part that has my friends in it and they're here for me to hang with and be silly with and squee with and feel woe with. This is the part of my life that's always good, even when it's bad because you guys ARE super-awesomely-fantastic to me.
People come and people go, and that's how life is. I had someone who I considered a good friend that I met on LJ who I haven't seen/heard from for years now, and I think about her often and wonder what she's up to, but you let them go, because otherwise you go crazy. What if is great for stories. What if can suck in real life. So, this is how I do fandom - because for me, it's about the wonderful people that I meet through it, a conduit to awesome if you will - and I think maybe that's wrong. But it's what you get from me.