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No one quite understands
As I was taking care of dad, I could barely survive. It might have done me good to journal, but like I said, it took everything I had just to keep going and to take care of my dying father. Three years have passed and even though the immediate pain has been buried deep, it affects me greatly in so many ways. I try not to think about everything that ( Read more... ) -
Ten Months Later
Journaling is strange because of everything that gets left out. At one point in time I wanted to record everything I could so I would be able to read my life story when I am an old old lady. I reread a few things just from a year ago and it's funny how strange it sounds to me. I now wonder if I really will want to read all this later on....probably ( Read more... ) -
Marching on
About a week and half ago, Chad and I took dad to Disneyland as his big last hurrah. It's been over 15 years since dad had been. Almost needless to say, he had an amazing time. He loved watching the shows, the fireworks, world of color, the parade. He loved riding the rides. He just loved going around from here to there and everywhere. I made an ( Read more... ) -
ALS or better known as Lou Gehrig's Disease
Dad has been diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's. When Chad, Rollie, and I first started noticing dad's speech and mobility declining, this is what we were afraid of. It is rare and not many people know exactly what it does to someone. Neurology is a complicated and mostly unknown territory. ALS is a terminal illness. No one knows exactly how long someone ( Read more... ) -
Relationships
Megan, Juli, and I have been group texting with each other about this and that; mainly inspired by Jewels saying she wanted me to get married so she could attend a boho wedding. I wrote them a little note saying "I havent really told you guys but I am so happy with Rollie. He is everything a boyfriend should be: So caring, loving, honest, ( Read more... ) -
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I remember when I used to try to journal about *everything* in my life. I did this partly to remember events when I am an old lady and partly out of my OCD tendencies. I gave up on that somewhere along the way and now try to check in every now and then with milestones, of sorts. This weekend Alecia Lockheart had an old person themed birthday party ( Read more... ) -
Moving in
What to do, what to do first...I have millions of things. I can't decide what I want to do most ( Read more... ) -
love love love
Every morning, before he goes to work and I am still sleeping, he kisses me on the forehead.
When we watch movies, he squeezes me a little harder at the most romantic points.
I have never been so truly loved. -
Birthdayz
This will be the last year I am in my twenties. I am happy to be the age I am, but I don't look forward to having to work harder at keeping this fragile bodily machine running. It will be strange to not be considered young anymore. Society says youth holds potential and a whole road ahead. Really though, the way I see it, no one knows how long ( Read more... )
