definitely sadness, but also an opportunity to re-evaluate myself and my life. to embrace change as well as mourn it. the short view is one of loss, failure, and regret, but i'm confident that, in the long run, this will be remembered as necessary, a catalyst for improvement, despite the frost-heaves in the road that led there ( Read more... )

a bout of depression for monday morning. feeling like i'm letting people down a lot. feeling like people are upset with me. feeling unable to please everyone while maintaining my own sanity and happiness. lost and lacking a destination. just pretty crappy.

last night was fun and fancy free.

aside: lj has been telling me to change my password for at least 3 or 4 years, and all the while i've said 'suck it'

ever have too much of a good thing? or something so awesome you lose sight of it? or something amazing that's tainted because you didn't appreciate it like you should have? or doubt. or sadness. or the feeling ( Read more... )

i had a very bizarre commute this morning ( Read more... )

wicked.

just finished off another book on my list, darkness at noon. i enjoyed it. i like books that have characters that think in them (see also the catcher in the rye and the river why). it made me think of what i would do if i knew or suspected my impending doom. i think the most important thing would be to write/record all my thoughts, ideas, tunes ( Read more... )

well the old ears are ringing. i was able to practice with one of eliahu's bands today, and even though i've never really played bass i feel i kept my own. i realized that i haven't played with a drummer since the glory days of 22 e. 15th st (with nick walter rockin the kit). and i don't think i've played with a full band since friggin high ( Read more... )

today i thought, "the directors' meeting is important; i should change my socks."

when it comes to music, are both flats and sharps needed? i mean, couldn't they just have one or the other?