So, I'm back to super depressed. I honestly want to give up because I fail at everything. I wonder if it is time to just end things. I'm so worthless...

It's nice to know when someone is no longer interested in you. Even though you have been with them for years. I give up.

I have lone out lived my usefulness. I really need to find a way to end it. I wish I had the courage to end this pointless life.

I'm so down lately. I still feel like an epic failure. Every part of me wants to give up and walk away. I'm a bit worried because my workouts are not helping anymore. I want to give up. I'm done...

I still seem to hate my life. I have no real friends, my family stresses me out. I do think if I vanished it wouldn't make a difference, because I don't make a difference. I hate that I wake up. The only joy i get anymore is in my workouts. I will push until I can go no further. My only reward in life is the muscle soreness I get. And that has ( Read more... )

So, I now know I for sure am the problem. All I do is fuck things up. I'm sick of pretending to be strong. I hate that I'm still alive, and want so much to die. I should never have been born. Please make me die...

Is there anybody out there or am I really this alone? Why is is impossible for me to be happy? I hope my last day comes soon.

All I want for Christmas is my story to end. I feel miserable no matter what I do. I think once I die I will be easily forgotten.

I hope to expire by 6/20/2014

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I find i serve no purpose. I am pointless! Why do I continue to wake up?

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