A lot of people who ship Spike/Buffy do so on the basis of Spike's speech in "Touched" - he's seen Buffy at her best and her worst, and still loves her, without expecting anything from her in return. His love for her is pure and selfless. What I sometimes wonder, though, is... does Buffy return the favor?
That's not to say that I think Buffy
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Buffy becomes so insulated and even repressed emotionally as a character by Season 7, so it's not the standard love affair for her. Not in terms of the declarations one would normally expect and the ones we in fact get from Spike. Rather, that when it comes down to doing her duty and believing in him because he needs her belief, she unlocks his chains and sets him free. The key moments to me that determine her emotional love are to me based on what she's willing to do for Spike. Like when Xander is kidnapped by a demon, but Spike gets knocked down and she runs to his side even though Spike isn't hurt. Or the way she calls his crypt "cozy" -- she looks back on his crypt with a smile and fond memories in Season 7 ( ... )
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Also, OMGWTFBBQ? Where?
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In my personal fanon, yes, she absolutely does. In actual canon, though... I don't really know if I believe canon!Buffy is capable of that kind of love. I try not to think too much about actual canon in this respect. *sigh*
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She's only ever sure she's okay when she's sacrificing herself. That was her heaven: having given all she had, she was complete; with no more to do, she finally knew she was okay, from now to forever. Being brought back to life destroyed that sureness. Somehow, it was all to do again.
I think she's applying the same standards to Spike. But Spike, even when seriously messed up and soul-ridden, isn't quite as self-destructive as Buffy, so he's not projecting the same self-hatred onto her. That's what he can give her: a measure of lightness, of self-kindness. Whether she can give him something as valuable, I can't say, but he seems to think so.
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Her belief in him. It saved his soul when the First was hellbent on tempting him to evil's side. "She believes in me, she believes in me, she believes in me..." Her belief in him gave him strength to believe in his ability to redeem himself. To love and be loved, to forgive. And everybody's okay, right? For he will be loved.
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Rahirah notes the issue from Spike's side, and you voice it beautifully from Buffy's. Thanks for expressing my own thoughts so eloquently.
BTW, it's also very easy to picture a day in the distant future where Spike's gone after a lifetime together, and Buffy breaks down because the towels are NOT on the bathroom floor, and the mugs are all clean, and her favorite sword is right where she left it.
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Agreed. That's why I love the ending so much (even though I love to read post-Chosen reunion fics that address that question).
BTW, it's also very easy to picture a day in the distant future where Spike's gone after a lifetime together, and Buffy breaks down because the towels are NOT on the bathroom floor, and the mugs are all clean, and her favorite sword is right where she left it.
Someone should write this. Would be an interesting change from the standard "Buffy dies and Spike mourns" fics.
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