he left.
everything smells like him.
my pillow.
my blanket.
my hoodie.
me.

i'm intoxicated.

i think
i'll start writing in this again.

chad and jessica came over this morning at 2am.
those two are my soulmates.i could spend forever laying on my floor looking up at the ceiling with the postal service in the background playing the honesty game with them ( Read more... )

day old burritos.
yum yum yum.

during the bands set, i stood up and he followed.
he had his arm around me &i knew it would lead to something else.
out of nowhere he pulled me in &kissed me.
something inside of me screamed "this is wrong, you know it is"
&as wrong as i knew it was, i did nothing to stop it.

andy and i are back.

so chad and jessica and i had the talk.
he pretty much broke up with us.

he says he needs to focus on grace right now. he needs to give her the attention she needs and be the boyfriend she deserves. right. k.

i shouldn't say this.
chad can't focus on grace.
he's still in love with jessica.

(looking back on it now, i wonder... if i hadn't of started to run, would i be alive right now ( Read more... )

today andy and i met at starbucks and chatted for a while. it was a good chat although nothing new really came of it. no new epiphanies. no resolutions. although he did buy me a chai ( Read more... )

i am the only teenager I know who has made it home by curfew every night even with her parents out of town ( Read more... )

"Depression is all about If you loved me you would. As in If you loved me you would stop doing your schoolwork, stop going out drinking with your friends on a Saturday night, stop accepting starring roles in theater productions, and stop doing everything besides sitting here by my side and passing me Kleenex and aspirin while I lie and creak and ( Read more... )