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note to self: i miss you terribly

tomorrow when i wake up im finding my sister and making her take me back down to the water. that lake where we sailed and laughed with our father. i will not desert her. i will not desert her. no matter how i may wish for a coffin so clean or these trees to undress all their leaves onto me. i put my face in the dirt and then finally i see the sky ( Read more... )

its a romeo and juliet. a camera full of pictures spent, on wasted faces. replacing rocks. well no, maybe just a rock. random on the beach and waiting for the tide. .. staring at the moon. i hope i never have to 'cut him out in little stars'. becuase the sky cannot reach down its arms and wrap them around my spine. i left too soon we met too soon ( Read more... )

this is the closest to this friend that ive been.
i hope you find it easy on greener ground and bluer skies.
i hope you dont think less of me if im cold,
i dont want to watch you go.
ill cry until i cant see the whites of your eyes
for two more years, two more years.

we’ll be old enough to know better, young enough to pretend.
this is the last of my ( Read more... )

so i smell stale beer. and your gorgeousness. well they melt together.. like i need to melt with you.  and you have the remote for my eyes in your hands. ok im lieing. the batteries arent even inside, the plastic that holds them in is somewhere on the carpet, check under the edge of the couch. see?

shit. so now you know. or did you know? dont even ( Read more... )

Sometimes the inspiration never comes.
When all you want is someone to realize your depression.
When all you want is someone to say that they care.
The sun can be shineing but you don't see it.
And the love can be there but don't feel it.
Sometimes the inspiration never comes.
and the ransom for your joy is just too much.
And to show your face means they ( Read more... )

i know that it is freezing, but i think we have to walk. i keep waving at the taxis, they keep turning their lights off. but julie knows a party at some actor's west side loft. supplies are endless in the evening by the morning they'll be gone.when everything is lonely i can be my own best friend. ill get a coffee and the paper, have my own ( Read more... )

im staring out into that vaccum again from the back porch of my mind and i start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw. my eyes have turned red as stoplights, you seem ready to walk. you know ill call you eventually, when i wanna talk. 'til then you're invisible. 'cause theres a switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense and in the ( Read more... )

! at the disco

this song will get stuck in your head. i think these lyrics are right.

well shes not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention caaause thats just ridiculous. but she sure is going to get it (the attention and the bullets). heres the setting: fashion magazines line the walls. the walls line the bullet holes...
you sure, ( Read more... )