Comments | plaguemachine: She's Gone.

plaguemachine

She's Gone.

Nov 17, 2009 02:49

Even though she did annoying things, sometimes, it still kills me that my friend went away. She was in my life so heavily for all of those years, and in an instant, she ran away because of something that wasn't even my fault. I didn't do anything to her. I didn't try to ruin her life. I never said a discouraging word to her. I supported her ( Read more... )

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Support baileysummers November 17 2009, 08:15:31 UTC

Hey I was just exploring LJ and seen your post. I'm new to the whole scene of things and being online and everything but I seen this and read how you were feeling and I felt I had to post something ( ... )

Re: Support plaguemachine November 17 2009, 08:29:04 UTC

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to comment.

I not only told her that it was a terrible thing that I had to tell her, I gave her the means to find out the truth straight from the horse's mouth. Even if it turned out that it was bogus, she deserved to know what was being said. Also, she implied several times before I told her that she already knew. It turned out to be one of those things she had figured out on her own but didn't want to hear said.

I do try to be a good person. My intent was never to hurt her, though I knew the news would have a negative effect on her. I just never thought it would be directed at me.

Re: Support baileysummers November 17 2009, 10:22:30 UTC

Yeah, I'm sorry that this happened it really sucks to just try and be there for somebody and you and not the person who actually wronged them gets the crap for what someone else did. It's a case of shooting the messenger in the worst possible way ( ... )

Re: Support plaguemachine November 17 2009, 10:48:12 UTC

It was such a screwed up situation. I can imagine that some of the following things complicated the situation ( ... )

desdemona47 November 17 2009, 12:24:04 UTC

I understand completely what you mean. It's awful to have a friendship end on such unsatisfactory terms-and know there's nothing you can do to gain that closure. But, for what it's worth, I think you're right. I think she proved how unworthy she was as a friend, at least in that situation and in that time. You never know, though, maybe at some point she'll come around? Until that time, all you can do is leave the door open and hope she decides to try it.

plaguemachine November 17 2009, 13:41:34 UTC

I have always left the door open, and I let her know when we split that if she wanted to try again, I was here. Sadly, three years have passed, and she still tries to keep the happy home image. As long as she does this, she probably won't ever come back. Her husband has a lot of control over her and he hates me for telling her anything.

desdemona47 November 18 2009, 02:27:26 UTC

It's really hard to watch someone you care about make bad choices. But, as you said, you're doing all you can do by not fully closing the door on her.