I so want this to end

Nov 24, 2010 10:11

I am just going to vent today. I am not feeling quite as bad as I sound, but I need to get this all out. I need to put it somewhere so I can move on ( Read more... )

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chiller November 24 2010, 10:23:31 UTC
Please don't be offended by my saying this, but is this the menopause? I went through it when I was 33-35 and dear sweet god, nobody ever tells you that half the time you physically feel like you're about to die. My anxiety in general went through the roof. I was getting panic attacks that were 100% physical in origin and felt as if I had just been dropped down a well (you know, that plummeting, heart-stopped feeling?). It was hellish. The only reason I mention it is because it may have no bearing on your heart at all, but it might well be causing your reaction to the anxiety - this feeling of not being able to get a handle on the anxiety. I dono, just a suggestion. I know that when I figured out that all the stuff that was happening was physical in origin, rather than me being loopy, I felt a lot more able to cope with it / less worried about what it all meant.

Also, I do hope you get well soon! xx

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peaceful_fox November 24 2010, 10:31:33 UTC
Ha! You're not offending at all :-) - and this is certainly something I have considered as the cause! All of this can be connected - the heartbeat, hot flushes, and even the immune system problems/hives and panic attacks can be connected to both hypothyroidism and/or menopause! Menopause can be such a mindfuck. I was having perimenopause symptoms a bit over a year ago and some of the symptoms are very similar, especially the emotional ones. Everything is so interconnected.

I just want to get the damned test results back and also the ECG so that I can work on whatever it is.

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chiller November 24 2010, 10:44:34 UTC
Yeah, I totally see that the ECG results are top priority right now. I have my fingers crossed for you on that front! xx

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peaceful_fox November 24 2010, 10:33:56 UTC
Oh, and I am tracking through this journal and on my phone (for the more intimate symptoms) to see if anything is cyclic, which I can then give to my doctor.

I should Tweet them. JUST KIDDING! ;-)

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naurwen November 24 2010, 10:23:43 UTC
I can see how worrying this must be and I hope that the results will be clear and good!
I think it’s easier when one knows *what* is going on exactly, rather than being in the dark and just knowing that something’s not as it should be, as then it could be anything.
And I hope you can go to Poland happily and celebrate your ***good*** results there!!!
*hugs*

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peaceful_fox November 24 2010, 10:32:27 UTC
That;s the thing - just give me answers. I just want the test results (next week it will have been two MONTHS!) and want to start working on whatever is wrong.

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marilavado November 24 2010, 12:37:35 UTC
*BIG BIG hugs to you*

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chiropteraclan November 24 2010, 15:53:36 UTC
*hugs you tightly* I wish I had something more of comfort to offer you. xoxo

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moogiewoogie November 24 2010, 17:01:56 UTC
*hug*

The best thing to do in these situations is to not worry about them and to try to get your mind off of them. I have nerve damage in my right arm from years of working on computers. When I get stressed out, my hand will shake so bad, I can barely use a fork.

You work really hard...so hard, in fact, that sometimes I wonder how you do it :) You should go to a day spa to spend a "me-day". You wont regret it, and you definitely deserve it!

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