Comments | paretto23: personal baggage

paretto23

personal baggage

Mar 18, 2017 16:08

I've noticed I feel really emotional when I'm by myself. With nothing to distract me and no other people to keep me away from my own head, I think it's okay to think bad things. Hate myself. Cry for a bit. Have sudden unreasonable wishes to be dead. And I shouldn't have any of that right now. You know why? Because I have such a better more ( Read more... )

emotional, personal crisis, feelings

Comments 4

oviparous March 20 2017, 16:28:33 UTC

i sorta know what you mean, but i won't say i understand because i believe you are singular in how you feel. however i do believe there is a kindred spirit for every troubled heart (or maybe more), and i just want you to know i'm thinking of you!

paretto23 March 21 2017, 08:33:49 UTC

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oviparous March 25 2017, 14:13:58 UTC

but you do. or rather i think that none of us deserve any of the good things in life, but we're given them anyway. haha. that's my take on living.

i always go back to the point in time when my life changed - when i lost my baby. it's made me realise so many things about grief and suffering and empathy, and honestly it's made me a better person. it was an ugly thing to go through, but i learnt so much because of it.

also, i happened to chance upon this article that said: If you want to be a better writer, you have to become a better person. and that's so true. i take my craft pretty seriously, and i've realised that i've gotten so much better at it since i got 'enlightened' about the workings of the world after coping with the miscarriage and the depression. i'm still trying every day to be better, but it only gets easier because usually when you're a better person, you affect the people around you as well!

paretto23 March 27 2017, 12:06:04 UTC

when so much crap happens to you, you do have to question the good stuff though. that's my current state. every day. it's...it's strange. but i think you have a point there LOL ( ... )