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Funny to take a look at the last thing that I posted and compare it to what I'm thinking about right now. I have been in a relationship for two years and it's been apparently three years since I posted about unrequited love and making mistakes and a basic cry for help in the way of stability. Now is the polar opposite but I feel as though I have ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Single pride day
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So, i was on facebook the other day on the circle pines profile and saw some recent pictures. Lately, i've been really, really, really missing circle pines. I miss it in a really subtle way, i get wafts of the smell momentarily and i keep thinking about the people who've become so foreign to me with the passing of time. I realize that i made the ( Read more... ) -
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The other night we had a team of two ghost hunters come to my house. We had to shut out all the lights in the house and sit and attempt to rattle the spirits for four hours. The guys had tape recorders for e.v.p. s, video cameras, electromagnetic field monitors, and cameras. The house seemed to be completely calm for once. Either we scared the ( Read more... ) -
ghost faced killah
Ghost hunters came over today- Paul- my sister Halli's baby-daddy, and his friend from work. could not stop laughing hysterically when Paul said that he'd gotten another job "looking for boxes", he has to find out through some kind of binary system where boxes from General Motors have gone, because 12 million dollars worth of them have disappeared ( Read more... ) -
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Looking thru the classifieds has come to be my number one occupation during the day. everyday i go thru hundreds of listings and have applied to any that i was qualified for. The classifieds are the saddest monument to where we all are- to where I am- the classifieds are debris falling into a crater left by a bomb, they're the sting of a hard ( Read more... ) -
shame
I wish i could stop doing things i come to regret monstrously. I have to stop drinking. Last night I drank so much that I blacked out and missed half of the night, which apparently I spent behaving like an asshole idiot. I hid in the bushes in my front yard and refused to come out, sobbed hysterically and sat on carmen who was sleeping on the couch ( Read more... ) -
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i really feel like i can't take it. i'm really lucky i have a home, and a family, but the rest of my life feels like it's completely falling apart. i feel sad ALL the time. I quit my job and I'm not even happy. I've just replaced my job with a different kind of monotony because i'm afraid. i'm always angry at my friends. mark always does the ( Read more... )