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__onthebound August 24 2021, 22:56:23 UTC
Sigh. My binge eating has been off the rails. I've never felt worse about myself and I'm sad. I feel lost and overwhelmed. Like I'll never get past it.

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washingtonusa August 24 2021, 23:13:41 UTC
Same here. I don't know what to do

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angela_derp_otp August 25 2021, 01:09:41 UTC
Don't be too hard on yourself, the world is a shit show right now plus whatever situation you are personally going through. I know its easier said than done but honestly just forgive yourself when you feel ike you messed up and give yourself the same kindness you would give to a friend. :)

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washingtonusa August 25 2021, 09:22:45 UTC
You are nice. Thank you!

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burntxtoashes August 24 2021, 23:03:12 UTC
Good for her. Its been nice to see how gradual her weight loss has been - I feel like for so many celebs, its all about losing weight as quickly as possible, and its not necessarily realistic or sustainable.

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omni_videns August 31 2021, 05:16:23 UTC
Same, it's super inspirational because it's so attainable.

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fauxkaren August 24 2021, 23:07:55 UTC
Talking about health and weight is always very... fraught. Much like Rebel, I've lost a significant amount of weight. And lmao oh boy, let's just say I am very thankful to my therapist because hahaha so many emotional issues about it, even though I'm losing weight at a pretty slow and steady pace that has been fairly stress-free for me.

Last weekend I was going through some old pictures of myself from pre-weight loss and I was taken aback by the flood of emotions it brought up? Like my instinctual reaction was one of disgust? And then I felt bad about that. Anyway, lol spent all of my therapy appointment yesterday working through those emotions and practicing kindness towards myself and reaffirming that I'm worthy of love now and I was worthy of love then.

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milestoburn August 25 2021, 16:20:33 UTC
I feel this so much! I was actually talking about this with my therapist last month, lol. It's been awhile but years ago I lost close to 100 lbs in about a year, and it fucked with my head big time. Just to see the way everyone treated me better, how much NICER everyone was, strangers and acquaintances alike, even though I was still the same person on the inside. It's a gross feeling to realize people probably didn't like me just based on appearance before. I'm glad you have someone to talk to about it, because it is definitely as much a mental change as it is a physical one.

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iznanassi August 24 2021, 23:11:56 UTC
Idk I'm glad she's in a better place but I also hate when previously fat people go back and trash themselves, it feels unproductive? Obviously I don't know her but I know some people in my life who look at pictures of themselves and are like "wow I was so disgusting and lazy!!!" etc. and my heart hurts for them bc I loved them regardless of their size.

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spiffle August 25 2021, 00:42:32 UTC
I had a weird moment recently looking through old photos of myself. I had always put so much hate onto my teenage self but looking recently I realised that I had spent so much wasted time on hating myself and putting down old me. I wasn't as fat as I thought I was and that version of me did not deserve to be hated so much well into adulthood.

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bakemonos August 25 2021, 01:11:33 UTC
I was just about to say this shit. You feeling bad about yourself was obviously tied to your image and that is something that they need to hit up a therapist for because when the weight comes back, so do those feelings.

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lozbabie August 25 2021, 01:55:17 UTC
It’s hard. At my biggest I was over 300lbs. At my lowest I was 196lbs.

With COVID and mental health issues I’m currently 250lbs. I’ve never not been obese as an adult.

And while I don’t hate my former self, I wish I’d done so many things differently. And I wasn’t healthy. I’m not healthy now. But I want to be and I’m working on it for me.

But I look at pictures of me at 25/26:27 when I was really heavy and I just cry. Because I see how sad I was despite the happiness in my face. I know it. And I denied it then to everyone. And HATED my mother for begging me to lose weight.

But i know I’m feeling better smaller. I know that the old me wasn’t her best version. And I’m not now but I’m working on it, in all aspects of my life. (ADHD diagnoses and medicated, therapy, regular exercise and now getting onto food)

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lyra_loo August 24 2021, 23:15:09 UTC
Odd to post a picture where she is at her "most unhealthiest" but also participating in a sport? I mean, health is very complex but this is such a strange choice. And all she says is "it's interesting that I'm still active in this photo" - yes, it is interesting that you chose to post this photo as your example. But why is it interesting to YOU?

Tbh all of her messaging around weight loss has really rubbed me the wrong way but I can't always tell if it's just because I dislike her in general. But like... I just don't understand the message of this. And how much she has made talking about her weight loss her new career.

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iznanassi August 24 2021, 23:20:45 UTC
i'm glad i'm not the only one, like that's highly personal so i don't really want to go in on her or anything but since she posted it i feel like it's fair to comment on the tone

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choukoumei August 24 2021, 23:31:04 UTC
I think if she had not talked about going through a rough time and turning to junk food- I would not have been able to tell that it was her at her "unhealthiest."

Talk around weight loss can often be a minefield though because people use "unhealthy" to equal "so fat and ugly" and that can send a message to anyone who currently looks that way. Like I am happy for anyone who truly gets healthier but I also think if you are a celeb with a platform you need to be careful.

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bsfan August 25 2021, 00:24:49 UTC
Using food to numb my emotions. My father had passed away of a heart attack and it was such a sad time. I didn’t think highly of myself and wasn’t valuing myself how I should have.

To be fair...there's also some mental unhealthiness going on.

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