I had another post I was mid-writing last week about fear and for some reason I dropped mid way. I didn't want to come back to it until now because of panic. For the past week, I've been on the cusp of a panic attack. It is very odd too because I just woke up with it. One night I was having a strange dream, as usual, and all of a sudden I woke up ( Read more... )

I didn't forget about my promise to post, just was waiting till I could muster enough to feel compelled to write (any suggestions to get around that mental cock-block?). Any how, everything has been going smooth so far. Thanks to my life and brownie coaches, I dropped my images and critique in public culture class and added colloquium so that I can ( Read more... )

Ok, I am restarting writing on here because gosh darnnit I need to start keeping myself responsible for something and I think this could be it. Sadly, I've been meaning to write back in here for months, but always had a reason not to - don't have time, not enough to say, who cares? Regardless, it's time to start again, and will try to hold myself ( Read more... )

Well, yeah, I kind of fell off on writing in this for a long while. At first it started as a hiatus because of the final paper writing process which stumbled into winter break which landed on just laziness. Here's a brief review - Actually finished all my papers and on time. Haven't gotten any of them back, but received an A in my Race and Culture ( Read more... )

 
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So that last post delved into the depressed/emo side a bit. I apologize. It is just such a sinking feeling that feeds itself - multiplying until it reaches very unhealthy and dark parts. Typically I need someone to pull me out of it, a snap back into reality to break the cycle. This time though, it took a dream. This isn't the first time a dream ( Read more... )

Failure - it's been on my mind recently. Actually its been sinking my consciousness into this constant questioning and fear. I'm not a stranger to this feeling. It always seems to grip me at the most inopportune times. Whenever I am making strides and actually feeling confident enough about what I am doing, the pendulum eventually swings back and ( Read more... )

While procrastinating on reading my second book for this week, Siobhan Somerville's "Queering the Color Line", I thought to post about this teaching opportunity I want/am applying for in the Gender Studies department. They are looking for 4 instructors, two for the 101 course and one for a topics course (you come up with the syllabus) and another ( Read more... )

 
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Hello again. I just finished writing up a bunch of notes for the class I have to facilitate tomorrow on Eve Sedgwicks' Epistemology of the Closet. Great (for the most part) book, but damn am I nervous about having to facilitate. Everyone who has went before me has been pretty cool and collected and on their shit. I must admit even though I  ( Read more... )