i would slip her throat given the chance..... nah, maybe not.... but fucking gaaaaay how this is playing out. i know something i wish i didnt or atleast i have an idea.... i hate the church ( Read more... )

hey..so trying to get you back in my life is not going to be easy.... im getting so much shit for it. and i dont know what to do. i hate it. i dont understand how people can just close their minds off to the fact that people change and things arent the way they used to be. i have an open mind... and i still want to take it slow.. but i dont feel ( Read more... )

not mad.... i dont know.. uneasy. probably going to be leaving the place im working at now to move to a different center... i guess the timing works... ive been unhappy lately.... i got promoted and no one really seems to like it. . . and its getting to me.. the backhanded comments... rumors... its shitty... i hate hate hate hate drama.... i feel ( Read more... )

i am totally the shit sometimes when it comes to being a mediator...... so.... i rocked it out with my amazing heart to heart... and got two people back to well, talking... and other terms... so awesome. it sucks that im alright with other peoples problems but not my own.... aint that a b. anyway..... i got invited to billys wedding reception ( Read more... )

so.. bonkers came back... she came up to the window meowing her brains out.... hooray! whats the point of leaving when there aint no place better than home? yeah thats what i thought! me and my best friend got in a semi fight just a few minutes ago..... i think it might be our first fight. she was crying and everything. she was mad that i didnt ( Read more... )

that statement is supposed to be positive right? so... i'm thinking it isn't. its a ploy to fake people out. atleast me anyway. my cat escaped somehow. dummy. these windows suck...... i am angry. we spent a shit ton of money to get her fixed and have her shots done her food, litter, endless love.... and then hmm.. just takes off... wtf! whats the ( Read more... )

so its almost six in the morning. i woke up at 5 and i cant get back to sleep. paranoia is getting the best of me. its too dark... and i feel like someone is going to break in. someday... when i get some money ever... im getting a gun.. and some training in " i will shut you down mother fucker " sounds good to me. im tired so why cant i just feel ( Read more... )

so heres something ridiculous..... just about everyone stopped using livejournal.... anyway... just out of boredom ive been reading past entries from a couple people. pretty crazy.... life went berzerk 2005 i guess. haha...  not to mention... pretty much everything i ever wrote in here has no meaning anymore.. im in such a different place. im so ( Read more... )

so... me and tom quit smoking together... 7 whole days. but it works out. Rams Horn went smoke free ( Read more... )

its the New Year. hazzah...

my class starts tomorrow at 8am.... that means i've gotta be up about 6am.......ahh..... no good. its something else to add to my calendar... my John Deer calendar... hahaha. Maybe i'll get to see some of the people i used to hang out with! hopefully.... ill wander the dorms for a lil bit... hehe. im nervous though for ( Read more... )