With Love
Title: With Love
Characters: Yesung, Siwon
Pairing: Yewon
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-15
Disclaimer: I only own the story and the plot.
Summary: There's no use in saying "what if".
"How are you today?"
Just a simple text every evening. How are you today? And I will usually answer, "I miss you so damn much." Then you'd reply my text about two hours later.
"I miss you too. I'm counting for the days I'll be seeing you again."
I know you're busy and all. I know it. But I can't help of missing you… so damn much. I miss you so damn much until it seems like "damn" is a good word. Because it explains how much I miss you already.
Two hours for you means one scene of your drama, I know it honey. But two hours for me is like a year if it's without you by my side. And oh! I think your phone call every midnight is not enough…
You're always so tired and sleepy. I don't have the heart to let you listen to my babbles for hours like I want you to.
I know you're always struggling hard to even say a word, "Yes," to me every night. And I always insist to lull you to sleep every night, until I hear your soft snore and evened breath. They calm me down like nothing else, baby. I can imagine your exhausted face, and I feel like "damn" is not enough, actually.
But I don't wanna say "I miss you so fucking much," because the word "fuck" gives some weird feelings down my spine. No I won't tell you why.
Tonight I will sing you my newest song. I think I'm getting tired of my usual ballad songs, I sang you "It Has To Be You" and "Waiting for You" every night. Allright, they both screamed out my desire to meet you, my love, but don't you tired of feeling sad and gloomy? I will sing you my happy song "She Over Flowers" tonight. Of course the modified version… "He Over Flowers" is pretty decent I think, and I'm sure you'll be impressed with the lyrics. Just wait baby!
I want to share you some stories like usual, baby. Like how it is when we were together in our room. I want to tell you how much Kkoming is growing up, how adorable she is with her "new" fangs (sharper than they used to be and it hurts a lot when she bit me while we're playing, really…)! How my father still loves to sneak out to the street cafes every break hours of our shop WhyStyle. How people were following me today at Myeongdong when I was shopping! My fangirls were crazy enough to follow me everywhere now, honey. It's not only you who got to be stalked. Now me too! I'm happy.
Oh and btw, today I also went to Handel and Gretel to give some help. So many girls were there and they made me happy. Well, actually distracted.
Distracted from my continuous feelings of missing you, my love.
I almost had no time to sit down and enjoy the café since they're kept coming to me! Today was a lot more crowded than usual when I was there, I don't know why. Maybe because I told them I was going to go out on my twitter. No you didn't read what you think you just read.
I can't help the thoughts now, baby. When will you go home? You said you're currently in Taiwan and the news broke my heart all over again. I mean, you won't be flying to Korea for once a week like you could manage to do while you're residing in China. Taiwan also means promotions of your commercials and your old friends… I just hope you'll be lucky enough to really be home at least at the end of this month like what your manager promised you.
If you won't manage to get home by the end of the month, I will be ready. We'll just going to miss each other more and more as the days pass by right? And when we finally could meet, I can't imagine how happy I will be.
Sometimes I imagine, what if they never found our relationship out?
Will you still get those jobs of filming dramas in China and Taiwan while the Korean directors are still begging for you to get in their dramas?
Will they find it's not enough for you to be abroad only when M promotes?
Will they let you missed some SMTown Concerts? In the USA?
Will they give no individual projects to me like what they do now?
My newest solo is like a drop of water in the middle of the desert for me, baby. My thirst wasn't that relieved. Yet.
Baby, I really want to believe your words that we shall overcome this somehow. I want to believe that our love is that strong to go through all of these obstacles. I want to believe your words that everything will ended happily for us.
It's difficult and leaving us bleeding and sore like this.
I know things are going harder to you honey.
Look at you. In the middle of people you barely know. They speak the language you hardly speak. You have to work your ass off in the middle of some totally new and foreign environment. Manager hyung is the only person you can rely on.
Sometimes I just wanna scream. How cruel life is. How cruel fate is.
If only I could share your burden and loneliness baby, I definitely will. I won't let you be lonely anymore. I will keep you company anytime, relieve all your burdens and pains. But I just can't.
How sad it is to be unable to help our beloved person.
But you know what, baby?
All of these just make me love you even more.
You show me how strong and committed you are. Not only to your job and the people around you, but also to our love. By remembering you, I'd be able to stay strong. Going through all the way.
Remembering your sweet smile, I able to smile to our fans.
Remembering your efforts and hardwork in China and Taiwan, I able to practice for our newest album without too many irks.
You have inspired me, my darling, do you even aware of that?
Oops, there are too many gloomy things in this. Sorry, it's me and my mood all over again...
Anyway, please reply this letter right after you read it! Don't hesitate, honey. That's why I ask you to read this when you have a break in filming.
Now, get a pen, one/or two piece(s) of paper, and an envelope! Write to me right now! And go to the post office immediately, yes? Don't forget to buy some extra Taiwanese post stamps for my collection!
I really want to know how much you are going crazy because you're missing me.
Okthxbye, with Love.
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A/N: I won't tell you much, but i hope you guys understand this fic, and what i wanna say as a shipper.