The End, The Beginning

[newsong]

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self-assigned pennance
For problems with easy solutions

I've spent most of the day in disbelief - one more day left of the year and I feel so... lost somehow. Not lost in a bad, forlorn way, but as if the year had gone without being charted, without my taking a mould of its face as it perished as I

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[krisology]

Don't take this the wrong way.

I learned from experience that getting pregnant while overweight can be extremely dangerous and unpleasant. mostly just unpleasant, with the extra risks of barfing all the time and stuff. You don't have to be stick thin or buff karate master to get pregnant, but I WOULD consult a doctor before you start trying. I wish we had consulted a doctor before we got pregganant, if only for the extra person helping us out, you know?

Money is killing me too. It sucks. Good luck, and sorry :(

[newsong]

It's okay. I appreciate your concern. There's little chance that my weight will go down sufficiently to not be dangerous with the eating disorder - it's safest to just try and be as healthy as possible and hope for the best rather than looking to lose weight, which can really backfire and create more problems. Sometimes pregnancy will trigger weight loss itself, so that would be nice. I'm hoping that things will go well for us since I'm built strong, but if they don't, I'm sure our kids will be worth the discomfort. Hope things get better for you soon.

[krisology]

Yes, be as healthy as possible is really what I meant. And keep a serious and careful eye on your blood pressure - mine spiked so high that I am permanently damaged, but that's because my doctor was an idiot who didn't catch it in time.

[anonymous]

Good lord