Kanda's memories // looking back to D.Gray-man chapters 186-192

[nayru774]

I feel like ranting today, so please ignore it if you're not interested. The issue just couldn't leave my head for the past few days.

The question is: does Kanda actually remember everything that happened with him and Alma in the past? I looked back to the previous chapters and it doesn't seem that obvious anymore.

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[hakasha]

The question is: does Kanda actually remember everything that happened with him and Alma in the past? I looked back to the previous chapters and it doesn't seem that obvious anymore.Hmmm, interesting. I've been thinking about these things too. xD Precisely because of what we've seen of Kanda's reaction to the mentioning of Alma's name (and because the Noah went through all the trouble to make Kanda see the memories again - or was it necessary for him to be there for them to use those memories of his to "wake Alma up" or whatever it is they're planning?), I've been wondering if indeed Kanda's memories of this time are intact

[hakasha]

He also states that he doesn't give a damn about the Order, which confuses me a bit here, because he always seemed the type to put his missions above everything else.

This.... this confused me a bit too, and made sense at the same time. I mean, he's never really cared about Finders and other Exorcists, as he? Maybe he thinks they're just doing their job, or that they have to deal with the consequences since it's something they chose, or in some cases, something that was forced upon them and there's no escaping it - whatever the case, there would be no need for pity from his part, I guess. Or maybe that's not it at all.

However, this reminded me of a certain line in one of the DGM novels - one where Kanda says something like, "all I care about is destroying the akuma". Could it be that's exactly how it is?

>.< My rant keeps getting longer and longer, and I'm afraid I'm starting to confuse myself and saying things that don't make sense... ah, whatever. If I say something stupid, feel free to whack my head all you want and beat some

[nayru774]

Long rants are awesome~ :'D *gives you a ton of cookies for taking the time to write all this*

You know, another possibility just came to me. What if Kanda was so scarred for life after he killed Alma that he simply wanted to forget all of it and suffered trauma or whatever and he actually doesn't remember everything on his own? D: Also, 9 years have passed since then, and people use to forget things over time naturally (especialy about the things they went through as kids). Maybe Kanda remembers all of it just vaguely, and the Noah want to make the memories fresh again, forcing Kanda's feelings to resurface?

However, if the woman he sees (saw?) is the person he's looking for, I guess we could infer that either
A) his memories were hidden/deleted and so he's looking for her because he can still see her sometimes or he remembers seeing her and so he wants some answers from her (which he would -mostly- have if he knew about how his brain isn't, ah, in the right body?That's what I thought, too - that he's looking for her because he

[nayru774]

If it's not the ghost woman - who could it be? One of the scientists, I guess, no? If it was one of the scientists - one of the Baks - could it be related to that "promise" Bak Chan was talking about?

Yes, I thought that it could also be the woman who put Kanda to sleep, but... Somehow it doesn't seem likely to me. And it surely isn't Renee, since Kanda is aware where she is, isn't he?

Maybe she promised Kanda something that they failed to do even though he killed Alma? (maybe it's something they're still working on? I didn't get that impression, though, from the way Bak talked. It seemed something that has already failed - and since they're talking about the 3rd Exorcists, could that promise be something like "don't do that kind of experiments anymore"? Kanda seems to never have expected them to keep it, if that's what it is. or maybe he just doesn't blame Bak and the underlings?)This seems very likely. I assume tha's exactly the promise the Chan family made to Kanda. And they didn't keep it, but it's not really their fault.