LJ Idol - Week 1: I need the struggle to feel alive

[morettaallstar]

This is an entry for the therealljidol. If you'd like to read any of the other entries or vote for mine, you can do so here: http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/953518.html

Also, please note this is a work of fiction. While I did lose somebody, I am not the main character of the story.I spend six

Comments

[lilmissmagic71]

Wow... nicely done.

[morettaallstar]

Thanks!

[majesticzaichik]

I really like this! Is it based on anything... you or a friend's story?

[morettaallstar]

Bits of it are based on me in moments of stress, but my loss was less sudden and was only one person, and I never actually followed through on any of my thoughts of escape/throwing myself off waterfalls.

So, sort of but not quite?

[bleodswean]

This is a very strong response to the prompt. You did a great job condensing a long and complicated story into the succinct bits that really hit hard. Nice ending!

[morettaallstar]

Thanks!

[alphaloria]

Breathtaking read. One of my favorites this week.

[morettaallstar]

That's really lovely of you, thank you.

[messygorgeous]

Survivor's guilt. I'm Catholic and guilty about EVERYTHING, so I've often wondered how someone carries on after a traumatic event. This was such a real glimpse into what they may be feeling as they struggle to put their life back together.

[morettaallstar]

It can be very difficult to figure out who you are when something like this happens, when you've lost people who are so very much a part of you.

Thank you for the kind words!