ESCAPE!!!!!

[moldypotatochip]

So, last night.... I was killing time rather than doing chores...... and then I stumbled upon a poem I wrote in May..... it described my life as it is right now perfectly.  About how I have so much empty time and I hate it.  There were more poems that were similar.  And it was just.... dang it I cannot spend another year of my life here.  I have to

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[noclue2]

I love this song. For a 90s pop-tronica type song it really touches on something, doesn't it?

[bleuvii]

I'd like to read the poem. You should post it. But if you don't want to post it publicly, you can just email it to me ;)

[moldypotatochip]

It's possible I already posted it. I might post it again, though.

[moldypotatochip]

Yeah, I already posted it.... it was in May. If you click on the "i write poems" tag it will show you older entries with that tag.

[bleuvii]

I think I read it back when I was first getting to know you. I understood it then, but I think I can see the depths of meaning much more clearly this time.

It perfectly describes my first year in Japan. I remember having Skype conversations with my parents where I just said, "It's not that I'm doing BADLY right now, I'm just so socially bored, and I'm sick of spending ALL of my time outside of work alone."

There were three things that really changed the situation:
1. Getting involved in the taiko group, which gave me things to do and people to see 2-3 nights a week
2. Getting a car so that I could start hanging out with the Funehikians
3. Meeting Masa

You've already said that you don't like taiko and that you don't want to drive, so I guess I'll just pray that you meet a single friend whom you can do stuff with on a regular basis.

[distort_alex]

I would've thought living in Japan would be an awesome place to live.

I want to leave this city too.

[moldypotatochip]

It's not Japan itself that is bad..... I think it's mostly my situation. I have a great job and all that but there are ZERO foreign people in my town and the Japanese people here don't seem to realize that I am alone almost 100% of the time outside of work... I am not good at inviting people over because my apartment is messy and small and nobody ever invites me out... I should say very very rarely, less than once in a few months. I have tried to make friends but I must suck at it. The only people I have been able to become friends with live in other cities. Most of them are other foreign people. I really like the Japanese people at my church and I wouldn't mind living in that city because it's a lot bigger than here and there are things to do... but the town where I live is super small and there is absolutely nothing besides a grocery store.