LJ Idol - Week 30 - Impossible

[messygorgeous]

"I'm never having children."

Sitting on my front porch in the sharp afternoon light of a late summer's day, the look on my mother's face was one of pure sorrow.

"But, why?"

Overbright rays of sun spiked through the pine thicket around my house and left blinding patches on the needle-blanketed yard. I squinted at the contrast of dazzle and dark and

Comments

[marlawentmad]

This is a wonderful love note to motherhood. It is so nice to read about your journey grounded in some heavy realities. It is so wonderful to see someone living their most authentic life.

[adoptedwriter]

I love this! My daughter is in a very similar position as you were. I can sooo relate. Hugs...

[halfshellvenus]

I understand your mother's fear of not having grandchildren. Any time one of my kids brings that up (and they're both under 21), I feel a chill in my heart.

I'm glad you overcame your fear, and had kids anyway! If you love kids and enjoy being with them, I think you're missing out if you don't have your own. Some people truly don't want them, but I'm sure glad we had ours. :)

[messygorgeous]

So, my kids are 11 and 13 and I'm ALREADY thinking about what fun it will be to have grandkids. I have told my children I don't care who they love - black, white, green or purple. gay, straight, whatever...as long as I get to be a grandmom, lol!