Dearest reader

I have lost a great deal in the past year. I have lost two great uncles in january 2015 a grandma in octobet 2015 and greay grandma just this month. My grandmas helped raise me from a very young age. Infantcy in fact. I remeber them deeply and fondly. They are always present in my life and with out them j feel this void i cant explain ( Read more... )

Yes I am well aware of the times I write you dear readers. All two of you. Thanks for the loyality. I have lots that keep awake.

I have a family memeber that is doing poorly and its taking the whole family to help. However they refuse to do so and it falls to my mom and I. I am frustrated. Granted they do helo but not like they could and just ( Read more... )

With all the bs goin on with the rebel flag and the like. I am a person who finds humor and truth in the most obscure way. And i have folks who wanna put me on blast publicly calling me ignorant. Im tired of this shit. If you mother fuckers cant get your head outta yo ass and see that yhere is more than one meaning to something and cant see beyond ( Read more... )

Tonight i am burdened with the thoughts. The thoughts of this idea of being overtly pc. Pc has its place and is good for the most part. But isnt it just polietly labeling people and forcing them to choose a box that may or may not fit them. And when you mention your fed ul with it for a moment people shoot you down like your a hater or a murder.

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Okay so as you know i have diebeties well now that ive lived 13 yrs diagnosed with it and @  my emotional bouts with not doing self care. I think i am dealing with foot pain. Freaky stuf. I like narcotics because it gets to the point with min side effecys but becauses i live in rural america they r hard to come by with a nuroligist. Which ( Read more... )

Yes the head line reads like something out of a bitch mag or a garillia gurls zine. I get that but we as women never talk about how fucked up this depression is. Im border line gorephobic and horder amd im at my worst.

After i lost my job i havent alowed myself to feel the emotions. I havent grieved. I know its useless now but i think fir sanities ( Read more... )

I have found a show that i enjoy on tvland called younger. For the first time since the reviltion of me being gay or in general reaaaally . I have found a show i love for showing lesbians other than just a bull dyke. In a good way and i am feeling normal watching it. I love it. I love feeling normal nd watching it with family.

Its weird to feel ( Read more... )

Ok laugh all ya want.i know its a funny header.

I have three things on my mind oyher than sleep. Telling people how i really feel this fart and belch fest i have going on and these awesome storms that make the body feel good.

Okay so i know drudging up the pasy is no good. Yet ya ever wish ya coukd jusy say what ya needed to yet the better part of ( Read more... )

Lately ive been talking to this girl i like. Older and has the things i look for. Okay mind you i have dated since i was dumped via text message by my ex fiance. That was five years ago. I have dated briefly and found quick romance buy and large yet nothing meaningful. Well my current flame is something of a older person nit by much but older. She ( Read more... )

Why do we alow others opions of us harm us. That is the struggle today. I have been feeling worthless incapable and the like because of old ciworkers virws of me.

I know this is the root of my demise today and why unemployed. Yet i believe this bitch is right. I have been weekened and brought down by their evil ways. It haaas nothing to do with my ( Read more... )