well le t's just say i fucked shit up real good.  not completely, but at least when it comes to friends i did.  i feel like i can never get away from anyone, and people i don't like just won't leave me alone.  i'm so sick of being blamed for speaking my mind, and being the only person who is confortable enough with themselves to actually say how ( Read more... )

i'm not sure why i am writing on this stupid thing. i guess because sometimes it seems like everyone you talk to has lost their mind, and the more they say, the more you regret opening your mouth ( Read more... )

1. admit to myself i want to be with him, & tell him ( Read more... )

I LEAVE FOR SPRING BREAK IN LESS THEN 24 HOURS!!!!!!!!!

i want to let go. in so many ways that i never could have forseen. it's really the only thing i want right now.  i'm waiting to be left behind, and almost embracing it. i can not see it happening any other way. it's just a part of life, i am ready for the next step, i just wish i wasn't so alone when i take it. it feels weird knowing i won't have a ( Read more... )

1.2.3.

already blew, and it has only been 2 hours and 44 minutes into the new year.
joy.

I thougt I would do it now, considering I leave tomorrow morning and won't be back until the 2nd.

1.  Either forget about him completely, or actually make an attempt.  No more in the middle.
2.  Stop being friends with people just so I don't have to sit by myself at lunch.
3.  Say what I mean.  But actually mean it, and not regret it two seconds later ( Read more... )

i
am
such
a
chicken

i really honestly used to be normal. i used to not feel so lost every single second. sometimes when i am with my friends, or watching t.v, i feel like it isnt me. i feel like i am watching my life go by, and i so desperately want to jump in it. i want to hit rewind so badly, and take it all back. i just cant keep going on like this i cant keep it ( Read more... )

i'm scared to leave home, to leave everything i have known for my entire life.  
but i know it's what i need.
i'm so scared to pick the wrong school, big college or small?
do i want to blend in or stand out.
do i go in blind or risk losing an old friendship because we will drive each other crazy
DO I STAY HOME OR GO AWAY?
that is my biggest one.
i can't ( Read more... )