unsure

[lovejoel]

i started this jornal because i was hoping people would run accross it and give me some advice. i am a christian, but i am gay. i have loved guys as long as i can remember. when i was in middle school and my friends and i looked through playboy magazines, i would always flip to the spreads with guys in them with the women. i don't know how to

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[lovejoel]

thanks for the kind words...you're really cute, by the way. i am a pretty confident person. it's just that i have lived a lifestyle thus far that is in direct conflict with homosexuality. i have grown up in a conservative church, and have even worked for the church on and off. that's the problem. i would like to find some people i can talk to and get support from, but it's difficult to step out, you know? i have been so guarded for so long...

[robertlee2004]

I guess you have to wait it out... Do what you have to do to make yourself happy. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks, it doesn't matter...

hey

[lovejoel]

thanks for the thoughts. hope everything is ok with you, too, by the way. did you catch the comment i left for you on your post about your dad? lots of positivity and warm thoughts coming your way... you shouldn't have to put up with that. keep your chin up. don't let it reflect on you negatively. hope everything is cool...