today was such a piss off. first off, i had stayed up till 4 talkin den wen i was goin to reallie study for ma acc't midterm n practice ma intro prez, therez over 20 inflect and potiental virius on ma dam laptop. fuccck. made me stay up till 7 sumthin n i STILL hvnt cleaned it all. diu. 2 of them wont delect no matter wa i do. arrrgh. den i rush to ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHHHH! whew. okies. needed a scream. stupid haunting memories. fuck prom. fuck commencement. fuck everythin tat reminds n lingers me ( Read more... )

i hv been lookin in all the wrong places...cuz wa i reallie need has alwaz been so close.. me. over de course of simply few days, weeks, months.. i had slowly come to realize that i reallie do onliee need maself to fill my own emptyness. this void in me could onliee be filled by me. i am steadily redefining maself.. figuring wa being me means. its ( Read more... )

theres 10 more minz till class n im dying. decieded to stop smoking starting from sat n i'd had craving for them so bad i couldnt even sleep last nite [had intervals of 2 hr sleep throughtout 6 hr]. it was horrible. this morning ma uncle drove me home to pick up ma texts den dropped me off Young and Sheppard Subway station. holllllly shit, never ( Read more... )

weridy, i count how many cigz i hv had ma whole life.. n i finally had ma 100th one today. it was quite funnie actually cuz wen i started to take more "air" in, i wanted to reach 100 by de first week, which i later found much harder den i'd thought but wen i was actually almost there [in the 89-90's], i was taken abak a bit n was not too certain if ( Read more... )

omgish, OMG. when did MOI, de biggest slacker in school, turn into a uni nerd? HAHAA. but im quite happie with it, mostly cuz i feel in control, sucessful, and important. it also helps tat i dun feel like wa i had felt wen i was team leader/organizer in highschool: frustrated and highly stressful. that'z de best thing bout being in uni is. that ppl ( Read more... )

life alone... you [guyz] giggle and wiggle in delight ( Read more... )

today has got to be ma most happiest day durin de whole summer. ma summer as mention b4 was pretty much hell in all forms, shapes, n sizes. n well, today i thought it would b too but it was pretty amazing day. to begin, we bak track to saturday. out of de blue like msot ma decisions, i wanted to go to de beach n hvin nuffin to do on labours day i ( Read more... )

wa i feel; wa i dont feel; wa i think; wa emotions i hv: wa does it all matter wen u juss dun care?

okies, too many emotions rite now. phew. need a breather....anywaz, first things firsts, fing fing visted me today since fing fing was in ma neightborhood getin hair cut n brought me 168bbt..lol. talked a lil n realzed how muhc i missed ma friends. decied to go on aa n tag sum of them. but im scepital cuz i dun wanna trust or depend on anyone[again ( Read more... )