so i got a washer and dryer...paid alot for them. they were delivered today. one of the guys who put them in, while going to a breaker box in one of the bedrooms saw a porn magazine that said "i please and tease while on my knees" and "i can't suck your balls till you make the call". very embarassing. but that's not what this entry is about ( Read more... )

so i am becoming increasingly anti-social. i either go to lunch early or late at work so i can eat by myself. part of it is the food i brought- a human head with a side of goat's blood. no it's fish and brussel sprouts and cottage cheese (not together), which i feel is embarassing somehow or will at least induce comments. like "oh did you make ( Read more... )

so lonesome i could cry

god, not being able to catch your breath is up there is the top panicky feelings. i keep trying, but don't want to be too loud/sighy about it ( Read more... )

everything is reaching a head with this internship. things are due, fees and forms and transcripts and work. and everything is up to this lady who hates me (so i may have to do another internship). i will get everything done late and the boss who is expecting me to start asap will not like this ( Read more... )

so before i move, it's time for the nostalgia and the fears of change ( Read more... )

touch what i never touched before, seen what i've never seen before...woke up and seen the sun, sky high sky high ( Read more... )

i'm stuck ( Read more... )

it's funny how one thing is replaced by another. like not having things figured out to being unsure that what i did figure out is for me. or caring too much to not caring at all. starving to not wanting to gain weight. no money to cash and spending it frivolously, stupidly. from bitching about one thing to bitching about another. some things ( Read more... )

i am super bored. i was going to put some pictures in here, but i can't figure it out. i am like an old person when it comes to technology. i feel like i'm killing time and not living. but i don't know what i want to be doing.