kind of a rough time

[learningmyself]

man, i wish i had started this lj at the beginning of it all. well, the beginning of my realization of poly, not necessarily the beginning of all of the evidence, lol.  it's going to be kinda hard recapping it all

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[zesty_pinto]

Ah ha! So you have sought me out, I see. In such cases, I welcome your acceptance to my exclusive outcast's club for sagely advice, stories about my prostate, and various other goodies that make you know that talking to me is so worthwhile.

Okay, enough inflating my deliciously large and grandiose ego. I wanted to point out that another friend of mine is having a similar situation where they have an SO, but while the fellow is happy, she is miserable. I don't think things will stabilize for you until you can actually allow yourself that leeway to accept your polyamory, which I hope you can see where I'm going with this.

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[zesty_pinto]

I'm only mentioning the example, by the way, because she had it so bad that she knew there would be a point when she would look at her husband and feel nothing for him except possibly disgust. She's a fairly conservative Christian to boot and hated the thought of divorce, but she knew it was going nowhere.

I'm not saying you're going to do that to him though, of course, nor that your relationship is crappy (I'm jealous you have such a bond); however, repression does no one good unless you want to grow up into a creepy writer.

Now if you'll excuse me, I've got to go bury more skeletons in my closet so I can be the next Stephen King.

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[learningmyself]

hey, good creepy writers *do* make a lot of money..... hmmmm
^_^