Brilliant Blood, Beautiful Bones 5/15
Title: Brilliant Blood, Beautiful Bones
Author: lavenderpisha09
Pairings: Ian/Anthony
Rating: R
Genre: AU, Angst
Warning: Depression, Death (of a minor character), and inaccuracies in portraying these themes.
Summary: It’s weird, wanting something you can’t have.
Author's Notes: For thekettletbh who gave me a particularly phenomenal prompt (and for me, since it’s my birthday). I hope you enjoy this fic. This fic was written for Fanfiction Day 2015.
Another important note: I don’t know much about depression, psychology, or software. Now that I’m thinking about it, I actually don’t know much about anything. Everything written here was researched to the best of my ability, but will not be perfect seeing as I have limited knowledge about these topics. Still, I tried. I sincerely apologize for any mistakes I’ve made. Know that it wasn’t my intention to hurt or offend anyone, especially those who are actually suffering from depression. Have I mentioned that I’m not claiming to know everything about mental illnesses in general? Because I really don’t know much about them. I am also not claiming to be qualified enough to be able to write an actual decent story about mental illnesses, I’m sorry.
Last note: I have to thank D, who told me my initial format was shit and helped me clean up the fic’s format, and Kalina, who very helpfully read through my draft and told me what I needed to do with the fic. They’re the absolute best. This is the most challenging fic I’ve had to write yet, and it was an absolute honor (and pleasure) to fill this prompt.
Disclaimer: I do not own Smosh. I do not make money from this.
Part four here.
Hey, are you sure about what you’re planning to do? We’re totally okay with whatever you choose to do, by the way. I just want to ask you if you’re sure about this.
-Joshua O. (6:29 p.m. 03/28/2020)
Yeah. Sorry, Joven. I just can’t do it, man. I need some time.
-Anthony P. (6:31 p.m. 03/28/2020)
We totally understand. The bosses are pissed, but that’s fine because they’re just naturally dicks. But we’re totally okay with whatever you want to do. Take care of yourself, okay?
-Joshua O. (6:32 p.m. 03/28/2020)
Thanks. I’m actually going to announce that I’m not going to be in videos for a while on twitter later, I think. I don’t want to put this off. People are already asking what I’m planning to do, and honestly, I’m not sure yet.
-Anthony P. (6:34 p.m. 03/28/2020)
That’s fine. If you need help, don’t hesitate to call us, okay? We’re never too busy.
-Joshua O. (6:35 p.m. 03/28/2020)
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PRIVATE RECORDS - PROPERTY OF DANIEL SOHINKI, M.D., PSY.D.
PADILLA, A. (C280916)
RECORD LOG #4 (07/01/2020)
I find it interesting how Dr. Hecox chose to incorporate play therapy into his sessions with Anthony. While I started this research with the importance of an eclectic approach to therapy in mind, it’s definitely easier said than done. There are very few therapists who are qualified to use varying types of therapy such as play therapy or music therapy, and so there are few individuals who will be able to actually achieve what I want to achieve here: sessions that are not “one size fits all”, but are rather developed on a case-to-case basis.
I’ve yet to see how Dr. Hecox will draw on different theories and therapies to be able to fully satisfy my need for all my therapists to have an eclectic approach to therapy. He seems to prefer humanistic therapy, with a particular interest in Carl Rogers’ person-centered therapy. I can definitely see the presence of Rogers’ therapeutic alliance in Dr. Hecox’s sessions, and it makes me wonder if Dr. Hecox will be able to change techniques if his sessions with Anthony change or develop into something else.
I must admit, I find it curious how Dr. Hecox, in the early stages of his relationship with Anthony as his therapist, prefers humanistic therapy, when all my other therapists seem to prefer cognitive therapy. I would make the argument that it’s because Dr. Hecox is dealing with a client who has depression, but that is not the case-I have another therapist dealing with a client who also has depression, and yet said therapist (T019385) also started with cognitive therapy. Then again, every client is different, so I might just be curious over nothing. Nevertheless, I’m excited to see where his sessions with Anthony will go.
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Tuesday, June 30, 2020
Blog Post #4
He had an actual Wii X in the room.
I actually appreciated it, because then I had an excuse not to talk to him, but then I started wondering if maybe he appreciates it the way I do too. What if he doesn’t want to talk to me? Or what if he got sick of me not telling him anything?
Is he even taking me seriously?
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From: Joseph Reeds (joseph_llewis_reeds@research.harkinsonindustries.com)
To: Daniel Sohinki (daniel.sohinki@scrc.org)
Subject: RE: Participant #15
Date: June 10, 2020
Hey man. I looked through the attached documents, and I should be able to get all the coding done in a few days, then I’ll get your package sent on Saturday, probably. I really don’t understand any of your psychology mumbo-jumbo, but then again, you don’t understand any of my programming and engineering jargon, so I guess we’re even.
Anyway.
I’m really thankful for the “interests” part of the questionnaire you ask your clients to answer. I don’t really know if I’ve mentioned it before, but it makes my work (and my life) a hell of a lot easier, so thanks for that. As for the more technical part of the whole thing we’re doing, I’m slowly understanding more than before, but then again, it’s practically expected of me. We might have all that psychology knowledge transformed into a huge (and I mean HUGE) chunk of code, but it doesn’t mean I don’t have to reread all those reviewers you sent me months ago with every new client.
All this psychology is making my head hurt. No wonder I flunked my first psychology course in college.
-Joseph
P.S: Man, if we weren’t roommates in college, I probably would have flunked my second psychology course as well. Thanks for all the help, man.
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From Forbes, 14th of April, 2020:
The Game-Changers of Online Media and Their Earnings in the First Quarter of 2020
Over the years, media has started to become more all-encompassing than ever before. With the invention of the internet, not only has information been more accessible, it has also become more bite-sized, with younger generations no longer having to parse through entire volumes of encyclopedias for a school paper. All it takes is a few clicks on a mouse, a few filters, and a few seconds, and Google will be able to provide the information one needs.
It seems that scholarly knowledge is not all that Google has to offer. Since 2005, when website Youtube was created by Chad Hurley, Steve Chen, and Jawed Karim, entertainment has also been more accessible than ever, particularly to the younger generation who grew up with the development of technology. When Google obtained ownership rights to Youtube in 2006, no one had figured out that this new platform for viewing videos will, in just a few years, completely revolutionize the way individuals consume information.
2007, and the Partnership Program was launched, further developing the future of online media. It was with this wise move on the company’s part that the value of the company skyrocketed, along with the value of particular channels: Smosh, Fred, Nigahiga, and Freddiew, to name a few.
15 years later, and Youtube has gone further than anyone expected it to. With the unveiling of Youtube Red just four years ago, Youtube is no longer just challenging the norms of media consumption, instead choosing to define it. Now, more than ever, entertainment has never crossed over so many perceived boundaries, with online stars publishing books left and right, getting television and movie deals, and hosting radio shows. Indeed, online media and its members has become a force to be reckoned with over these years.
Last-year’s top-earning Youtubers, Smosh, met 2020 with a bang-out of all other Youtube Red partnership shows, it is their show, Part-Timers, that had the highest views, dominating both the female and male 15-24 demographic. Raking in $13.7 million in 2019, Smosh narrowly beat Swede Felix Kjellberg-more commonly known as Pewdiepie-for the top spot, with Kjellberg earning $13.3 million.
During the first quarter of 2020, Smosh held the top spot, with over $2.8 million in pre-tax earnings. With Ryan Todd-one-half of the comedic duo-dying in an accident this March, however, one can only guess how this will affect their earnings for the second quarter. Slightly behind Smosh is Felix Kjellberg, earning $2.6 million.
The Fine Brothers, having had their movie premiere last January, earns the third spot on the list of the highest-paid Youtube stars, raking in $2.3 million. Right behind these brothers are Hannah Hart and Tyler Oakley, both of whom earned $2.1 million. With the establishment of her clothing line and her new partnership with Burberry, Marzia Bisognin earned $2 million in the first quarter of the year alone.
Though Youtube may not have seen their influence developing like this since its creation in 2005, it’s definitely revolutionizing how people of various demographics consume media, making millionaires out of twenty-somethings in the process.
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C:\T271130\IAN HECOX\C280916\RECORDS LOG
PRIVATE RECORDS - PROPERTY OF IAN HECOX, PSY.D.
RECORD LOG #4 (07/07/2020)
Anthony was upset today. He was closed off, he had bags under his eyes, and though I wanted to make him feel better, for the first time in a long while, during that time, I genuinely didn’t know what to do. I thought we were making progress-he seemed to react positively to play therapy during our last session-but apparently not.
I believe something has happened to him outside our sessions to make him feel and act the way he did before. I couldn’t get whatever it was out of him, however, because right after two levels, he stood up, bade goodbye, and left.
Never before has the loss of interest in pleasurable activities been more evident to me than now. While during our last session, Anthony enjoyed himself, this time, he looked more bored than happy. His eyelids were drooping as well, and he yawned every time he thought I wasn’t looking. It’s possible that sleepless nights have caught up to him again. I was going to offer to asking Dr. Sohinki to prescribe sleeping pills, but as I started to talk, he started to tune me out. I didn’t even get a chance to talk before he left.
I’ll address the matter another time, I suppose.
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Have you eaten?
-Mari T. (8:04 p.m. 03/24/2020)
Peter cooked that vegan stuff you like so much. I was wondering if I could go and bring it to your apartment.
-Mari T. (8:05 p.m. 03/24/2020)
I’m fine, thanks.
-Anthony P. (8:09 p.m. 03/24/2020)
You have to eat, Anthony. You need to take care of yourself. We’re worried. We don’t want you getting sick.
-Mari T. (8:11 p.m. 03/24/2020)
Thank you, but I’m fine. I swear.
-Anthony P. (8:12 p.m. 03/24/2020)
I’m coming over.
-Mari T. (8:13 p.m. 03/24/2020)
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Tuesday, July 7, 2020
Blog Post #5
I don’t know what the point of all this even is. We just played with the Wii X. We didn’t even talk about anything regarding my issues and shit. It’s confusing the fuck out of me, because isn’t that his fucking job? To talk?
If he’s not going to talk to me and make me get better, then I don’t know what the actual fuck I’m even doing here. I’m just wasting my time here. I’m better off not doing this.
But if I don’t do this, Mari will be all worried and shit. I don’t want to worry her anymore.
I just want to sleep. For a hundred years, maybe.
Fuck everything.
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SG SQUAD (Joshua Ovenshire, Mari Takahashi, David Moss, Wesley Johnson, Amra Ricketts, Matt Sohinki)
7:17 PM - 05/08/2020
Mari: That meeting went well.
Mari: What are we going to do?
David: There’s nothing we can do. I mean, we did our best to make the board change their minds temporarily, but until Anthony returns, we can’t do anything.
Joshua: i can’t believe they actually want to get new actors for the smosh channel
Amra: I can. With Ryan gone and Anthony taking some time for himself, the channel’s at a standstill. We can only help with so many videos, especially since we’re responsible for Smosh Games as well.
Joshua: well, when you put it like that, i guess it’s understandable
Joshua: it’s just that
Joshua: don’t you think this is their way of slowly putting anthony behind the scenes?
Joshua: leaving him behind?
Joshua: things like that?
David: Joven, I’m pretty sure we’re all thinking the same thing.
Mari: That’s definitely their plan. They can do it legally, too, since they technically own the company.
Wesley: but isn’t that a bad move on their part? i don’t think the fans woud like it if there’s suddenly new people
Wesley: *would
Amra: Exactly. It’s a bad move, but it’s the only move they can do, barring actually forcing Anthony to go back to work.
Joshua: so what’s the plan, then?
Mari: Stall them from making actual decisions? I don’t want Anthony to come back to a failing company with a significantly lowered subscriber count.
Wesley: sounds good to me
Part six here.