Crap ( Read more... )

I'm not dead.  Update later, I absolutely PROMISE!

I hate work right now.  And I'm here until 5 today.  And tomorrow.  Uggghh...I'm looking forward to my lunch break, an hour of doing whatever I want.  I've become one of those girls who lives on Diet Coke and the occasional ciggarete.  I know they're bad for you but hey, at least I'm not doing coke.  Right?

6 shots of rum
5 bowls of good weed smoked
1 vicodin (200 mg)
1 Valium (2mg)

I railed the vicodin and then the valium in the space of about two hours.  Drank 3 shots of rum with my roommies.  Then other friends and I drove to go pick up our weed and got home and smoked a few bowls.  Then I blew the rest of the vicodin.  After the roommates I had been ( Read more... )

I just want to be FREE.

I feel like I might burst with this.   It can't start now...because if it does...everything will fall away and my life will fall apart. 

 I'm doing so well.  I think that the drink mix I use (SlimQuick Powder Packets) supresses my appetite or provides a psychological boost for me to do it by will alone.  Because I am really not eating much.  I drink about two cups of coffee a day, a diet coke or pepsi sometimes, the drink packet thing, and usually one or two Crystal Light On-The-Go ( Read more... )

I suck.

I'm sorry girls.

I forgot how hectic life can be, school, assignments, essays, etc. Plus I'm doing research for my thesis this semester.

In other news, I have a girlfriend. She's a year younger than me. We're still in that awkward-cute stage where we have just started going out.

I started using the SlimQuick powdered drink packets that you ( Read more... )

First of all, sorry for being MIA for a while.  With Uni starting up again and seeing all my friends, I didn't have much time.  I've been surprisingly okay with the eating.  I've gone almost whole days without food and it felt AMAZING.  I am going to try for that today too ( Read more... )

Girls...

I can't remember if I ate today.

I just don't know if I did.  I could have.  But I don't remember.  And I don't want anything to eat now.
I'm also smoking a lot of pot.  And I just finished a drink.  I sort of feel like crap, I might eat a few crackers to settle my stomach.

I'm failing. I'm failing miserably right NOW!!!!!! UUUGGGHH I suck, I'm horrible.

Let's forget this and never talk about my disgustingness ever again?