Self Pity and Wallowing

[karmicintent]

I have never missed Melbourne as much as I do now- that gut wrenching, heartsore, nauseous type of missing, like a part of me is firmly planted there, and I'm completely incomplete without it.

It's strange and wonderful, because last year, when I hadn't been back for periods of 4 months or more, the pangs weren't so bad.  I was back there in

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[petite_rani]

that is so true - it definitely is easier to stay sad than to stay happy. when you are sad, it's so hard to just SNAP out of it.

chin up, girlie!

[boringbianca]

I wish I was there for you. Thank you for always being there, even though you're thousands of miles away. Thank you for your email re: Steve situation. I love how you know all that's going on and that Steve confided in you before talking to me.

I'm crying now because I want to be with him right now, and I know for a fact that he wants to be with me... yet we can't because it'll hurt less in the future. I understand his reasonings. It makes sense. Why can't we live for now? He is so mature-minded and special and has so much rationale and *sigh*.....we have 2 months to better acquaint ourselves with each other. He's here, and I'm here and it's killing me not being able to see him. Even worse because I know that our feelings for each other are reciprocated.

Miin, you're not pathetic. You're the epitome of the anti-pathetic! It's okay to feel stagnant and sad. You'll never be Left Behind. We're all moving just as you are.

xoxo

[anonymous]

Miin baby! It was just the same when I first came home. I thought KL was the shittiest place in the whole wide world but I promise that it does become better. I think the hardest thing is that letting go thing... a big part of me is still hanging on to how fabulous uni life was and how I just want to go back there and be with all my friends and do all those things, but actually I think maybe we sort of idealise it in our heads when we don't have it anymore, and maybe it is much better in our imaginations than it actually is in real life. Does that make sense? Don't be too sad for too long, it will pass... and now the world is much smaller so your friends are only a few clicks away. And you get to hang out with psycho me in KL instead. what a bargain. haha *hugs* Love, Dolly