I only miss you when I'm breathing (20/?)
Let’s make a family:
They were falling back into their usual routine in Seattle. Arizona had stepped back in as the head of Peds and was insanely busy playing catch-up after so much time away. Let’s just say she was not very pleased with the Doctor Stark that had taken her place while in Africa. She had to change her unit back into the fairy dust and magical place it had been under her reign. Callie was working on getting the book she wrote in Africa published and was spending her time doing even more writing.
They both couldn’t wait to get pregnant, but things had been a little hectic, so they hadn’t really found the time. Last week, a month after their return, they had finally booked an appointment with Addison and today they were going over results and making decisions. Callie was coming to the hospital to meet Arizona to make sure everything was all good for them to start trying. Once in Addison’s office, Callie and Arizona sat down holding hands, waiting for their good friend. Callie was fidgeting nervously and Arizona immediately noticed.
“Babe, there is nothing to be nervous about. I’m sure everything is fine.”
“You don’t know that. I have just wanted this for so long and I feel like something is going to go terribly wrong. How are you so calm?”
“I just know everything is fine. I have to sort of believe in karma and we have had enough bad cards dealt. Its time for something good,” Arizona replied with a smile.
Just then Addison came into the room and greeted her friends, “Hello Ladies, who is ready to make a baby?”
Callie’s head shot up, “You mean, we are in the clear to get pregnant?”
“Absolutely. Everything came back normal, we can start today actually.”
“Yes, lets do it!” they both said together.
Addison laughed, “Alrighty, Callie we are going to start you on hormones and I will give you both a list of sperm donor candidates to choose from. When you decide on one you can either come back in to be inseminated or you could do it the old fashioned way.”
“Um excuse me. Calliope is not having sex with someone else,” Arizona quickly protested.
“Sorry that’s not what I meant. I meant you could be given the tools to inseminate her yourself. That way you can still do it right after intimacy, but it will feel like you made the baby together. A lot of couples prefer that.”
“Oh okay. Well yeah that actually sounds nice. Is it just as effective?”
“Yeah, actually some people have more success. These things often take better after arousal.”
Callie looked over at Arizona, “What do you think babe?”
“I mean whatever you want is fine,” she said even though she really wanted to do things the ‘old fashioned way’ because it would make her feel like she was the one who got Callie pregnant.
“I’m going to go get things set up, you two can have some time to discuss that,” Addison said as she left the room.
“Well I want us to both feel totally a part of this. Would you want to try doing it at home?”
“Really? I’m so glad you want that. That’s what I want too,” Arizona replied.
“Okay, then lets get this checkup done and we can pick a sperm donor.”
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Later that night they were sitting in bed looking over all the sperm donor files Addison had pulled out for them. They immediately narrowed it down to four choices: a doctor, a football player, a lawyer, and a musician. Arizona checked that all of these men had a clear bill of health and clean family histories, making sure to look extra carefully at medical records. The only thing that came up was some broken bones from the football player.
“I want to pick someone who looks the most like you Arizona,” Callie said as she continued to look over their final four.
“I think all of your features would overpower mine anyway though.”
“I know this baby is going to end up with brown hair, brown eyes, and darker skin, but I want it to be as close to looking like it came from both of us as we can get.”
“That would be nice. I guess that means we are down to two. The doctor and the football player are both blonde haired, blue eyes.”
“I know which one I want, without a doubt.”
“Which one?”
Callie looked at her, “If I can’t have your genetics with this baby. I want the donor to be as close to you as possible. The doctor has the same career, hair, eyes, and he has your dimpled smile. I think he is the perfect choice.”
“I like it.” Arizona said with a smile, “The pretty doctor it is.”
“Awesome, I will let Addison know tomorrow and pretty soon we can get started.”
“Sounds perfect. But ya know what Calliope,” Arizona said as she started to take off her shirt, “I think we should start practicing tonight. Just to make sure we have everything just right.”
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Callie had rushed to the hospital the next day to get the supplies and instructions that would kickstart their future. She was so excited that she immediately found Arizona on the Peds wing afterwards, the supplies still in hand in a box under her arm.
“Is that the stuff?” Arizona asked as she gestured to the box Callie held.
“Yup, in this little box holds the key to our gorgeous baby,” Callie beamed as she thought about how perfect this was all turning out.
She moved over to the nurse’s station Arizona was leaning against and set down the box. Then, she pulled Arizona in and began to kiss her up against the ledge. It was totally inappropriate, especially for the head of the department.
“Lets do it. Right now. Lets make a baby,” Callie whispered as she leaned her forehead against Arizona’s.
“Calliope,” Arizona warned, “I’m at work, this is so not the place.”
“Oh yeah,” Callie chuckled, “That never stopped you before. You were practically dragging me into an on call room a few days ago.”
“That was different. This is our baby. I want to take my time with you and remember the moment forever. It can’t just be a quickie in an on call room.”
“Yeah I understand,” Callie said disappointed, “I am just so eager. Can’t you just ditch work to get your impatient wife pregnant?”
Arizona laughed, “No, I can’t. The tiny humans need me, but I get off at 6 tonight. We can have a romantic dinner, a glass of wine since soon you won’t be able to, and then you can let me take my time with you while I knock you up.”
Callie smiled absolutely loving the idea, “That sounds amazing Arizona. I’m going to head to the store then to cook a lovely dinner.”
“Can’t wait. I’ll see you at home later,” Arizona said as she gave Callie a goodbye kiss.
“Tonight’s the night,” Callie beamed already glowing as she left the hospital.
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Later that night they had made love and Arizona did the deed. Then, they lay in one another’s arms for hours just talking about plans and the future. Usually, they would go multiple rounds, but they didn’t want to risk messing anything up, so after the stuff was injected, they just enjoyed one another in a different way.
They went on this way for about two months. Basically every week, Callie would take a pregnancy test and every week she would be crushed with a negative. She didn’t understand why this wasn’t working. She started to think that maybe they should try another route to speed up the process, but she really just wanted to be able to make a baby this way, the way they had planned.
They would be heading back to Africa soon, so maybe that would be a break from all this. She wanted to see Allison and needed something to keep her mind off of it. She had become a baby hungry monster. Whenever she visited Arizona at the hospital, she would sit outside the window just staring at the babies, wishing and hoping that would happen for her soon.
Arizona was kind and loving, continually assuring Callie that it would take soon. She promised that no matter what, they would be parents. She would do whatever it took to make them parents.