I only miss you when I'm breathing (19/?)
A/N: So I decided to post two chapters since I busted them out and I always hate waiting for new chapters. Enjoy…maybe I’ll post a third later cause it’s almost done.
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In just three days they were on their way back to the states. Carlos had Callie show the men towards the hut she was kept at, but there was no sign of them. They stayed for another day to search, but then Callie pleaded with Carlos to leave it alone and allow them all to go home. He only conceded when Callie and Arizona agreed to take armed guards along with them whenever they visited the clinic in the future. It didn’t really take any convincing because they were both unsure of their safety there any longer. At this point, Arizona was doubtful she would ever let Callie come back here with her, but she did not voice this just yet.
On the plane ride home, Arizona looked over at Callie who had fallen into a deep sleep. Even though she was exhausted and still had some bruises, she was absolutely stunning. Arizona couldn’t believe she had almost lost her forever, but now they were both safe. Carlos had convinced them to still come to Miami for a bit before their return to Seattle. The chief gave Arizona as much time as she needed promising her position would still be waiting when she returned.
When they landed in Miami, Arizona shook Callie awake. “We’re here,” she said sweetly into her ear.
“Wow that went quick. I slept for a long time.”
“You needed the sleep. Let’s go see your family.”
Lucia was waiting on the steps of the Torres estates and ran up to the car the moment they arrived.
“Oh Calliope, I was so upset. I hope you are hungry because I bake when I worry, so I have been baking for weeks.”
Lucia then began to tear up as she clung to Callie. She only broke away to take in Arizona.
“Oh sweetie. You must have been such a mess. How are you?”
Arizona just looked over to Callie, “Everything is perfect now.”
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They had been in Miami for about 3 days now. Lucia always insisted they have a large dinner and she was even planning a party for them on the weekend. It was Thursday night and the family dinner had fallen into easy conversation with plenty of laughing and drinking. Just as with the last few days, Arizona never broke contact with Callie. She spent the entire meal holding her hand or with her hand on Callie’s thigh. She just needed the reassurance that she was still with her. Lucia broke her out of her thoughts when she addressed the couple.
“So ladies. When are you going to give me a grandchild? You’re not getting any younger you know.”
“Lucia,” Carlos warned, “They have had other things to worry about, give them a break.”
Arizona just laughed, “It’s fine. We have actually been talking about that,” she said as she looked over to Callie asking for permission to spill the beans.
Callie nodded then spoke, “We have an appointment with Addie when we get back to Seattle. We want a baby as soon as possible.”
“Oh thank god. I have been dreaming of this forever. I can’t wait.”
“Yes we are very excited,” Arizona said.
Lucia continued to gush about the new baby that didn’t even exist yet and how she couldn’t wait to spoil it. Callie wasn’t listening anymore though; she was just looking at Arizona feeling like she was the luckiest woman in the world. Arizona caught her gaze and smiled, it was like she was having the exact same thoughts. After dinner, they retired early because it had been a long few weeks. Even though Arizona had finally slept the first night Callie returned, it was clear she was still exhausted and no longer sleeping well. She still stayed up way past Callie after they made love just looking at her. It made her feel safe and she was afraid if she closed her eyes, she would wake up and it would be a dream. Throughout the night, she would have to turn around and check just to make sure. It was taking its toll on her.
Once they were lying in bed, Callie pulled out some sleeping pills and showed them to Arizona.
“I want you to take these Arizona. It is clear you haven’t been sleeping and you need to rest.”
“No, Calliope, I’m fine, I don’t need those.”
“Oh really, then tell me why when you wake up in the morning you look more tired than when we went to bed.”
“Baby, I’m fine,” Arizona said as she turned over trying to avoid this.
“Do not baby me and pull away Arizona. I was missing for two weeks and you thought I was dead; you are not fine. You are clearly not sleeping; you are not fine.”
Arizona turned and looked into Callie’s loving and concerned eyes. She couldn’t lie to or hide from those eyes. “You’re right. I’m not fine, I am so worried that this isn’t real. That you are still missing. I know it’s irrational and I shouldn’t be letting this affect me, but I can’t help it.”
Callie started to rub Arizona’s back, “I get it, but this is real. I’m here and I always will be. Here,” she said as she grabbed Arizona’s hand and placed it on her chest, “do you feel that? My heartbeat is real. My skin, my breath, my love, it is all real.”
Arizona broke down and started to cry. “I know, I just think this could be a dream. If I let myself truly sleep, then you won’t be there when I wake up.”
“Arizona, I will always be there when you wake up, forever. I get that it’s hard and it may just take some time, that’s why I want you to take these pills.”
“Okay baby, but promise me you will be here when I wake up,” she said as she looked up to Callie.
“I promise.”
Callie held Arizona until she heard her breathing even out. Callie stayed awake just to make sure Arizona was sleeping, and then she let herself drift off.
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The next morning, Callie woke up before Arizona. She was glad that Arizona was getting her rest and she just spent the next half hour watching her. When Arizona started to stir, Callie began giving her soft kisses.
“Mmm you’re here,” Arizona said in a sleepy haze.
“I’m here, I promised I would be.”
They went down to the kitchen to eat and Callie began making breakfast. Arizona just watched her as she swung around the kitchen and danced to some tune in her head. Arizona came up behind her while she swung her hips as she flipped pancakes on the stove.
“I love watching you cook,” Arizona said as she kissed Callie’s neck. Callie turned around and kissed her. Aria came slowly into the kitchen right as Callie started to deepen the kiss with Arizona.
“Get a room lovebirds,” Aria said as she went to the fridge for a bottle of water. It was clear she was just getting home, as she was still in her clothes from the night before.
“So did you stay out partying this whole time or are we witnessing the end of your walk of shame,” Callie said with a smirk. Arizona just laughed.
“Uh I’m offended big sis, I stayed at Chelsea’s,” she said as she faked hurt.
“Yeah right, you would have borrowed her clothes if you did that. You totally got laid.”
Aria knew she was caught, “Fine whatever, so what if I did. So have you every night since you got back, probably last night too, even though I wasn’t actually here to hear it this time.”
Arizona’s mouth dropped open as she looked over at Callie.
“Don’t look so shocked Arizona, you are the loudest one.”
“Aria!” Callie warned knowing how much her wife hated being overheard.
“It’s fine Calliope, but no more sex for you while we are here.”
Callie glared at Aria, “Damnit sis, look what you’ve done.”
“It’s not her fault miss ‘no way anyone can hear us through these walls’” Arizona said as she glared at Callie.
Callie just chuckled as she thought about how she would have said anything to get laid.
“Anyway,” Aria interrupted, “you two are coming out with me tonight.”
“Oh we are?” Callie questioned.
“Yup. I decided I want to hang out with you and I want to go out, so you have no choice.”
“Come on Calliope, that sounds like fun, you can teach me how to salsa,” Arizona said with a flirty wink.
Aria just rolled her eyes, “As long as you agree not to have sex on the dance floor, salsa it is!”
Later that night they rolled into one of Miami’s hottest salsa clubs. Everyone was a little buzzed as they had engaged in a pretty intense pregame at Chelsea’s house. They grabbed drinks and a table in the corner. Arizona watched as the club came alive. The people here were practically professional and now she was a bit nervous to try and dance.
“Wow Calliope, this place is intense. I don’t even know how to salsa. Not standing up anyway.”
Callie immediately began thinking about doing the horizontal salsa, something Arizona was an expert in and she just about dragged her out of the club right there.
“It’s fine, I am an excellent teacher.” Callie downed another shot, passed one to Arizona who also took it like a champ, then dragged her lover onto the dance floor.
She pulled Arizona face to face and said, “It is all about feeling the music. You just have to go with it.”
“Hah, yeah have you seen me dance,” Arizona responded.
“Loosen up, this is a sexual dance and you ooze sex baby,” Callie said as she nipped at her ear.
Arizona relaxed into the dance as she let Callie lead her through the movements. After a while she actually started to get the hang of it. She was nowhere near as good as Callie, but they were a nice team.
“Not bad,” Callie said as they continued, “Just don’t go using those new moves on anyone else.”
“Only for you love, only for you.”
They dancing for quite a while longer then made their way to the bar. While ordering more drinks, one of the dancers in the club who had been the center of attention all night approached Callie.
“Hey, I couldn’t help but notice your expert moves. Care for a dance?”
“Um no thanks,” Callie said as she pulled Arizona into her, “I’m here with my wife.”
“Oh I see,” the woman said, “It’s just a dance, so if you change your mind, I’ll be over there.”
“You can dance with her you know,” Arizona said as she paid the bartender.
“Really? I thought that would totally be off limits.”
“She’s right. It’s just a dance.”
“Yeah a very sexual and wandering hands dance. No thanks, I only want my hands all over you.”
Arizona smiled secretly loving that Callie refused to take the chance to salsa with the superior dancer and actually very sexy woman even though she had been given permission.
“Okay, but just know that I’m not jealous. I trust you.”
Callie loved to hear Arizona say that, especially after the whole Lindsay fiasco.
“Thank you, but I only want to dance with you, forever,” Callie said as she led her back onto the dance floor.
They continued with their dance, this time Callie got even more handsy and was kissing all down Arizona’s neck and chest.
“You see gorgeous,” Callie said as she continued exploring Arizona’s body and led their dance, “this dance is way too sexual to do with anyone but you.”
Arizona gulped and just continued to enjoy the movement. Callie had no idea what she was doing to her, or maybe she did and was doing it on purpose. Arizona was starting to moan audibly as they continued. Then, she whispered into Callie’s ear, “Take me home.”
They found Aria lip locked with some guy and let her know they were calling a cab. Neither one could keep their hands off one another the entire way home. They stumbled into the house and quickly found their way to Callie’s bedroom. In no time at all they were both naked in the bed. It was then that Aria’s comment from earlier kicked in and Arizona gently pushed Callie away.
“Damnit, I said no more sex in your parent’s house.”
“Oh no way. You are not going to work me up like that, get me naked, and then deny me,” Callie said clearly frustrated.
“We can’t,” Arizona whined, “Who knows if your parents have already heard us. I am so not going to risk that.”
Callie started kissing Arizona’s neck again. “We’re married Arizona, not some young high schoolers. Newsflash, my parents know we do it.”
“I know, but I just don’t want them to hear it.”
“Well you are just going to have to be extra quiet then,” Callie said as she flung a pillow at Arizona to muffle her screams.
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Next stop, baby making : )