"What's all this talk about youth in Asia?"

[jrs1980]

Part two. This is hella long. I'd be shocked if this wasn't the longest entry I've ever made in the almost 10 years I've had this LJ.

It's funny how something can become the "new normal". It's not that hard to feed a cat, right? Scoop out food, put in dish, put dish in front of kitty, kitty eats food, repeat.

Comments

[escap1974]

I'm sorry, Joy. I hope that the counselor can help. I don't think it's that unusual to be this upset, though. I sometimes still get teary when I think about the dog I had to put down while I was in college. So take care of yourself, but don't worry that there's something wrong with you. (And if the counselor tells you different, let me know becuase there's OBVIOUSLY something wrong with ME! :^))

Love you.

[sunbrae]

This reminds me of when we had to put Dexter Blue to sleep. I was so heartbroken even though we had him less than a year. I can't imagine your devastation, and I am so, so sorry. I hope working with the counselor is able to bring you some comfort. *love*

[raskazzptitsa]

Aw hun.

The ceramic pawprint thing is a nice touch, I wish our vets did that.

Also, one thing I'll say - in retrospect I waited about a week too long to put my cat to sleep last September. I dithered and worried because I wasn't sure what to do and I wanted more time, but in retrospect he was in so much pain and I feel awful for prolonging it. So don't ever doubt your decision because I feel it was definitely the right one.

Anyway, I waited all of a month before meeting and greeting with the strays at a foster home near us, where I found a new pair of fuzzbutts to love. It didn't get me over the loss of my cat by a longshot, a year later it still hurts, but they at least helped me start to heal. So maybe when you're ready the right cat will find you.

So so sorry

[zengoalie]

Awh, I'm so sorry you had to make the decision, but you were strong for her in the end, and that makes you a great pet owner. It's been almost 6 years since I had to put my Luke down, and it too was something so quick. We had Dietz for another year, and then I had to have him put down too. They both were only with us for 9 years, and I still get teary about them as well. You're so lucky to have had such a long happy time with Smokey.
I still am not sure I'll ever get another pet. It's very painful to lose them, but sometimes you get a special one that is irreplaceable. Smokey is lucky to have had such a loving dedicated owner like you.

[sarah_p]

I'm so, so sorry Joy. I'll agree that I don't there's anything weird about you still being upset about this a month later, though--Smokey was in your life for such a long time, it'd be more weird if you weren't. I do hope that seeing the counselor helps, though, and that maybe even writing this out, as hard as it was, was somewhat theraputic, so you'll never forget your last day with her. I'm sending healing thoughts your way.