I have been thinking more and more about my "friends". I put these in quotations because they don't exist anymore. I haven't had these friends in 10 years or so,when I really thin about I. where did tings change? What brought an end to all of this. Well, it happened when I got pregnant. As so many people, I lost touch with everyone, not for my lack ( Read more... )

"If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfiedIlluminate the no's on their vacancy signsIf there's no one beside you when your soul embarksThen I'll follow you into the dark"

the theme of my life for the past few months or year actually has been: nostalgia ( Read more... )

why do i even care about this? should be irrelavent, but cant shake it. must trust my intuittion and pull away

so, according to some people, i need psychologist. therapist. or a psych ward because the way i feel and act affects everyone around me ( Read more... )

its sad to me when people who are so supportive of you when things are going good. when it turns to things going bad, the support disappears, just for you sticking up for yourself. it makes me sad to know that you dont have my back when i got yours. no matter how much i think you are wrong, i got your back. reciprocation is non existent.

anger. just straight up anger. i dont deal with it well. anger explosion from my brain out my fingertips.

i have been trying to figure out for a long time how i can use my talents to make money. it seems so simple and yet so difficult. my life has been crippled most of my life searching for a connection. the connection, in reality, is inside of me. i hold a collection of natural talents that i can throw together somehow. i have notebooks and notebooks ( Read more... )

i am alive. so is my son. later on i will be headed to the store to get gifts for my son. he really doesnt know what christmas is, which most people would find strange because he is four. honestly, it doesnt bother me that he doesnt know. christmas usually sucks anyway. i would rather not lie to him and tell him him that a fat man wearing red and ( Read more... )

"i hate to see someone as pretty as you lose hope ( Read more... )