Well got bad news from the doctor. so now i have to go for daylong tests in 2 weeks in greenville. im kinda nervous and hoping it aint nothing they suspect it could possibly be. Lexi still feels bad and i feel terrible for her.. i hate that i cant do more when she hurts but i hope it gets better and she will stop being stubborn and take care of ( Read more... )

Well bad news about my nanny today. she had to go in for another surgery today so they could try to see what is wrong with her liver. unfortunately they couldnt find out so now shes back to recovering from the heart surgery she had a week and a half ago....and she has a 50/50 shot of making it as things stand now. i hope things turn out better ( Read more... )

Ive decided to start back keeping my journal. It has been a mixture of heaven and hell in the past 3 monthes. Ive met the girl i want to marry...who i love more thatn life itself. but not she seems distant and aloof to me. I amd dealing with the issue she has and trying to be as understanding as i possibly can. but i dont think she realizes i have ( Read more... )

Well it has been a long weekend spent mostly thinking a lot. I want someone...a friend...a girl...someone i can confide in and be able to talk to. But this seems to much to ask for these days. Trusting anyone has been the biggest mistakes i have ever made in life. Just read becca's LJ...and see that she is gonna be able to have her uncle co-sign ( Read more... )

Its 947 am and im up. rainy and depressing day out...it is suppose to be that way all weekend. Just read rebeccas journal. i wish she talked more to me but i guess thats wishing on a star on a cloudy night. i need to help her get that windshield fixed ....but seems we dont talk anymore wher ei can plan anything. im setting aside money this week to ( Read more... )

tired as hell today...bored with the net...really dont go on much anymore. Just doesnt keep my attention anymore. if im on its usually for research or to talk to the 2 or 3 people i still talk to. im kinda glad ive grown away from it

Sitting here playing checkers online with becca...and watching the spurs game ...bored shitless...

should i move out to clai or stay here in nc? hmmm

well ive decided to put my crummy life up here for all the world to see. today has been a decent day...kinda grungy outside...and seemed to go by slow. i am contempulating a job with clear channel communications for advertising....1500 a week with a 300 dollar expense account... not sure if this will leave me time for my goals of self employment ( Read more... )