I think I kind of know what I was like that last night, and like that still. I think I have low blood pressure, or low blood sugar level. Or whatever. Or maybe I haven't been eating enough. I skipped breakfast and lunch today, and now I feel too sick to eat. No, I'm not on a diet. I've been finding it hard to eat without feeling sick for a while ( Read more... )

I don't really know why, but whenever I sit down at my desk, my heart pounds insanely as if I'm about to do something nerve-wracking, as if I'm standing somewhere really high up and just staring down and seeing no bottom.

Yes. Fear. That's what I'm feeling. And I don't know why.

eta: I wonder if no one cares, or if I just expect too much.