i think too much.

no matter how hard i try.
i can`t get my life together.
i can`t please anybody.
and it kills me.
and i don`t want to cry in front of everyone.
so i`m going to talk to my mom.
i hit the ultimate low today.

so first thing this year 2 of my friends were stabbed ...
by my other friend... wtf..
i swear..
we are ending the world.

i am in a really bad mood... i hate this.....
i havent ate in two days..
i cant ...
i have to force it..
ughhh whats wrong with meeeeeee

you know what sucks??
i feel like im losing my best friend...
to another best friend..

so ive decided that im going back to school for business... cuz i dont want to be just someone that works at cingular forever... well we'll see how that works out..

so i guess you can say an angel was with us on wednesday when we nearly died... CHP says that we had no reason to survive that accident let alone walk away from it like it was nothing... im on disability until my doctor releases me... i got a credit card which helps so much! ahh and the bills imma get are going to be so high its not even funy.. the ( Read more... )

i am going to go nuts.
next weekend.
well saturday-sunday night.
will be the FIRST time EVER that gabe and i
will not see each other.
i am going nuts now.
because i can`t go.
CUZ I WORK!

so life has had like a drastic turn for me when me n gabe got together.
its not a bad one.
LOL.
i am so so so so fucking happy with him its crazy.
i dunno how to explain it..
but uhh yes just to clue you all in hehe.
i love him. [:

so as no body really knows but me and MR. GABRIEL JOHN GARCIA. have been going out for one whole week. lol. i like him soooooooo much.
my whole life now =
7-4 work [cingular]
5-9 or 10 [gabes]
11-7 [sleep]
i get my car in february maybe march.
but uhh that pretty much sums up my life im going to the store bye!
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