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[hopita]

OK, so I caught some more sleep. Probably a good idea so I won't be exhausted at the end of the work night.

I wonder if Debbie's back yet. I would really love to see her today.

And the funny thing about my current life situation is, since I called to say I'd bring the keys back whenever he wants, he actually hasn't spoken to me. It's making me

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[unixd0rk]

you showed up at my house when i specifically asked you not to. to top it off you were drunk and then refused to give me back my keys when i asked for them. i don't know anybody who would put up with that kind of unpredictable shit from someone and allow them to keep a set of keys. if i was a dick i'd put a poll on my blog and prove it to you.

...and BTW, i never sent out that email you are talking about, and i really don't like to argue with anybody. also, your showing up completely unwelcome at my house isn't an "argument", hope.

i really can't believe that you expected that creepily barging into my house uninvited wasn't going to have any consequences, whether i was the nicest person on earth or not.

[hopita]

I don't know how to respond, Rob. I said I'd give the keys back. I apologized. There's nothing more I can say.

[nirbhao]

it's possible. you can do it

[hopita]

And his comment above makes it easier somehow.

It's crushing. It's crushing to have all of that anger thrown at me. It's crushing to never know if he'll be the sweet, giving guy that I fell in love with, or the brooding, angry guy that made me feel so inferior sometimes. At the moment, it's mostly the head-against-the-wall sensation of saying I was wrong and having someone yell at me and tell me I was wrong.

Man. I talked to n0thingman once about how hard it is for me to understand why people don't love like cats. Cats, they sidle up next to you and just radiate love. Heck, even on Friday night, his cats were rubbing up against me and being sweet without knowing or understanding that the walls were crashing down all around us.

Fuck. I have to go to work.

[nirbhao]

cats or dogs. my dog, Palmer, she just loves. always. no matter what. that might be why she's so important to me right now.